update
Sorry I never use this anymore. Things are like so:
Eugene and Gaily's friends went all psycho jealous bitches as soon as I moved from being his friend to being his girlfriend. My status with him is limited because he doesn't want to get too emotionally attached. He thinks it would get in the way of all of the things he wants to do and wants to be able to leave easily if he has to, although the more time I spend with him, the deeper I fall for him. School fluctuates between enjoyable to really stressfull throughout the week, Alex is an immature butt hurt baby at times and then directly after resumes his former position of "I miss you, I want to try again, dump the guy you are with and wait for me, beautiful" adn it has been reestablished to me that just as easy as it is for people to fall in love with me or just love me, it is just as easy for them to let me go completely, to drift away in the breeze which is what I tried to tell you all along, Kurt. I am always the one to try and keep in touch with everyone, but I quit. I think of you all and I love and cherish you all deeply, but I am done trying. If you want me in your lives and you care, show me, stop waiting for me to show you. I no longer have my cell phone but I still have a land line which is (310)836.8918 and you all have my various email addresses. Roughly every Monday, Wednesday and Thursday night I stay the night at Eugene's after school and I am looking to get a day time job so that narrows down my hours of availability to anyone interested... I miss you all... I think of you often... I wish I could hug you all again and show my love for you... although I wonder how much is mutual or how idealistic I am anymore... I wish you all the happiness you deserve and more.
Eugene and Gaily's friends went all psycho jealous bitches as soon as I moved from being his friend to being his girlfriend. My status with him is limited because he doesn't want to get too emotionally attached. He thinks it would get in the way of all of the things he wants to do and wants to be able to leave easily if he has to, although the more time I spend with him, the deeper I fall for him. School fluctuates between enjoyable to really stressfull throughout the week, Alex is an immature butt hurt baby at times and then directly after resumes his former position of "I miss you, I want to try again, dump the guy you are with and wait for me, beautiful" adn it has been reestablished to me that just as easy as it is for people to fall in love with me or just love me, it is just as easy for them to let me go completely, to drift away in the breeze which is what I tried to tell you all along, Kurt. I am always the one to try and keep in touch with everyone, but I quit. I think of you all and I love and cherish you all deeply, but I am done trying. If you want me in your lives and you care, show me, stop waiting for me to show you. I no longer have my cell phone but I still have a land line which is (310)836.8918 and you all have my various email addresses. Roughly every Monday, Wednesday and Thursday night I stay the night at Eugene's after school and I am looking to get a day time job so that narrows down my hours of availability to anyone interested... I miss you all... I think of you often... I wish I could hug you all again and show my love for you... although I wonder how much is mutual or how idealistic I am anymore... I wish you all the happiness you deserve and more.