wow... I'm bad at this keeping in touch thing...
So, hello, everyone... Been a while, no? Well, since we last talked, I have gotten a great job at a lawfirm and then I lost it last Tuesday. Big disappointment and self disappointment as well. I shed a few tears but forced myself to stop because I thought I was weak for it. Went to a private movie screening for Lord of War and enjoyed it much except for it was freaking freezing in that theatre and I was still in my work attire... a skirt, a little shirt and a little jacket, all of which paper thin... brr. There is someone new, there is... His name is Eugene. He is an amazing friend and I love him much. I would date him in an instant, but he is still recovering from a bad relationship and isn't ready for a new one. I stayed at his house twice this week. We slept in the same bed, he caressed me gently and at times, even passionately, and just held me close the whole time. Ugh... he is just amazing. I can still smell him on me. Alex.... hmmm... well, that sir sent me an email yesterday saying that he was coming into town today (Saturday) and would love to see me, etc. I'm a little uneasy about that. I guess a big part of me feels like it was too little too late, you know? Oh, I started school again. I am meeting all kinds of neat people. The night class crowd is so different from the day time people. I have a new Malaysian friend named Pern. He is really cool. Looks like Jet Li too, which of course gets him bonus points. Omid and I are back in touch. I bumped into him on the bus on Monday. Actually, my class was cancelled and I wanted to sneak over to Eugene's because we play this guessing game and I thought of a brilliant clue and I was going to write it on a piece of paper and stick it in his door and sneak off. Well, as I was pulling out the paper on a bus I almost never ride, and striking up a conversation with the bus driver, lo and behold who came meandering down to me. Yes, Omid and then we met up at school on Wednesday. I got there early, he was about to be late... yeah. Anywho. I got to Eugene's and ended up writing a lengthy precurser to the actual hint and when I got to his house, the naughty sir was awake! He was supposed to be asleep because he had returned from a weekend away at his parents and was exhausted. So the whole while I am trying to be stealthy with about three bags, one of which had keychains, and all the while he is in the kitchen making noise not ten feet away from me making me all paranoid. Well, I succeed and stick it in his door, sneak down the block with my things and call him and tell him to open the door. He finds it, asks where I am and demands that I come back up, so I ended up staying there till 2am, was it? Yeah, I got there at Eight... it was ridiculous, but it always is when we're together. On that lovely Tuesday that I got fired, I had that free screening ticket thing that admitted two and I told him that I wanted him to come so we saw it together and he took me home and we ended up spending three hours in his car talking with the seats reclined and even then holding eachother. Yes, ridiculous is a good word for it. But I love every minute of it, that I'll not deny.
Oh, yeah. I forgot to mention. My grampa got in a serious motorcycle accident and has had numerous operations and been in the hospital for weeks but recovering. My dad's mom is in the hospital with cancer and she doesn't seem to be getting better, it is actually spreading all throughout her body so he is less than happy about that. (The poor sir. Very upset that it was her and not his good for nothing father) and my old friend from Colorado is moving here and will help me with my dream of helping the world. He will actually go to these impoverished countries with me and help me build things and teach the children different things. Oh, he is a spectacular sir as well. If I had a list of Idols, he would be at the top. Two of my friends from Chile are coming to visit me. John will be coming next year around my birthday and Martin should be coming before this year is over. Kenny (colorado idol) will be coming to visit or to live within six weeks depending on what he decides. Another friend from Colorado, Devon, said that he'd quite possibly be coming to see me as well, and my friend Erik is coming from AZ to a nearby city in October so I can go see him soon as well. My brother came up to visit this last weekend but has gone through hell at his school including rape and it is just horrible, so he is done. He is moving up to Michigan about five hours away from his home town in WI to be with this internet love that he has found named Steven. Steven is a nice guy, but used my cell number to get a hold of Travi while he was staying with me. Then after Travi left, he was still calling ME seeing if I knew anything telling me that he loves Travis and nothing has ever felt more right and that he wont hurt him and I mean, I can see where he is coming from, he respects my opinion, I suppose, I guess Travi talks highly of me, I don't know, but he kept calling me and I don't even know the kid, so that came off as a little clingy and slightly creepy to me. He is a sweet kid, though and I am sure Travi could use that right about now... but I don't know... the best of luck to the both of them, I suppose. Oh, and my roommate Lindsay is finally coming back for good, but that means I am officially back to the couch... I have no room anymore, and no more comfy bed. Plus Eugene's brother (older) is coming back soon and is very condecending of him so the likelihood of me sleeping over there when his brother is there is very minimal :(...
Sorry for not keeping better track of you all. As you can see, things have been very ... random and slightly chaotic here... except for Sir Eugene. He is my newfound sanctuary....
Oh, yeah. I forgot to mention. My grampa got in a serious motorcycle accident and has had numerous operations and been in the hospital for weeks but recovering. My dad's mom is in the hospital with cancer and she doesn't seem to be getting better, it is actually spreading all throughout her body so he is less than happy about that. (The poor sir. Very upset that it was her and not his good for nothing father) and my old friend from Colorado is moving here and will help me with my dream of helping the world. He will actually go to these impoverished countries with me and help me build things and teach the children different things. Oh, he is a spectacular sir as well. If I had a list of Idols, he would be at the top. Two of my friends from Chile are coming to visit me. John will be coming next year around my birthday and Martin should be coming before this year is over. Kenny (colorado idol) will be coming to visit or to live within six weeks depending on what he decides. Another friend from Colorado, Devon, said that he'd quite possibly be coming to see me as well, and my friend Erik is coming from AZ to a nearby city in October so I can go see him soon as well. My brother came up to visit this last weekend but has gone through hell at his school including rape and it is just horrible, so he is done. He is moving up to Michigan about five hours away from his home town in WI to be with this internet love that he has found named Steven. Steven is a nice guy, but used my cell number to get a hold of Travi while he was staying with me. Then after Travi left, he was still calling ME seeing if I knew anything telling me that he loves Travis and nothing has ever felt more right and that he wont hurt him and I mean, I can see where he is coming from, he respects my opinion, I suppose, I guess Travi talks highly of me, I don't know, but he kept calling me and I don't even know the kid, so that came off as a little clingy and slightly creepy to me. He is a sweet kid, though and I am sure Travi could use that right about now... but I don't know... the best of luck to the both of them, I suppose. Oh, and my roommate Lindsay is finally coming back for good, but that means I am officially back to the couch... I have no room anymore, and no more comfy bed. Plus Eugene's brother (older) is coming back soon and is very condecending of him so the likelihood of me sleeping over there when his brother is there is very minimal :(...
Sorry for not keeping better track of you all. As you can see, things have been very ... random and slightly chaotic here... except for Sir Eugene. He is my newfound sanctuary....