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FIC: Not Where I Belong, Part 3

Feb 12, 2010 07:14

Title: Not Where I Belong, Part 3
Author: lls_mutant
Fic Summary: Tory might have pulled her from the launch tube, but Cally's life still felt like it was over. Everything she loved was gone, or at the very least, changed to something that she hated.
Chapter Summary: Earth. It's not what anyone expects.
Warnings: Suicidal thoughts (Cally), suicide (not ( Read more... )

Comments 23

lorrainemarker February 12 2010, 13:06:27 UTC

Oh, Hoshi! I like the change, it makes more sense, but oh Felix. Cally's lost a friend and everything seems to fall apart just as badly. Raptor 718 is still frakked and even though it's fleet traffic only, that's what it was doing when it made the bloody jump. Love the story, but ouch.

lls_mutant February 12 2010, 14:00:12 UTC

Thanks!

Yeah, this hurt to write. Usually I write Hoshi as a survivor, because he saw terrible things in canon and still made it to the end, but then I realized that actually, Hoshi was somewhat suicidal by the end. He just got sent back from the mission. But I really think the show should have developed Hoshi a little more and used him for the suicide. Especially since Dee didn't seem to have much of an effect on anyone, anyway. (Seriously- they did a good job with Cally's death affecting Galen and Ellen's death affecting Saul, but would it have killed them to have Dee's death really affect anyone, or Felix's? I think Dee's death affected Felix some, but I think Hoshi (if they'd had their act together) would have been the more powerful one anyway.

And yup. Raptor 718 is still frakked. ::pets Felix:: I'm afraid his story doesn't change too much.

lorrainemarker February 12 2010, 14:09:48 UTC

I'm afraid his story doesn't change too much.

I was afraid that was the direction this was going. ::Sigh:: I'm going to have to write my alternate mutiny ending where Zarek doesn't kill the Quorum and they have some things to say to Adama & Roslin.

prophetkristy April 5 2010, 03:50:25 UTC

I'm afraid his story doesn't change too much.

I was afraid of that. :-(

kappamaki33 February 12 2010, 15:52:12 UTC

Yep, glad I got that kleenex. As soon as you had Hoshi wanting kids, I had a suspicion that this would be the story where you'd switch Dee and Hoshi. It works really, really well, but oh boy, it hurts ( ... )

lls_mutant February 12 2010, 19:27:11 UTC

Thanks.

Yup. This is the one. It actually hurt me to write that suicide scene. (Although it was a little better than trying to do Dee's, which I couldn't do at all.)

That really hit me, too, how alone Cally was. I don't know if was intentional on their part or not, but I felt for her. By season 4.0, so many people seemed so alone. I really missed the family vibe. I know they couldn't stay a family after NC, but I think they could have healed a little better... plus, women friendships just didn't seem to exist. :P

Thanks!

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lls_mutant February 12 2010, 19:29:46 UTC

Thanks so much!

Badass Cally is SO. Much. FUN! I love her- I think the moment I started liking Cally was in Bastille Day, when she bit her would-be rapist's ear off. She's not a mean person, but something like that?

I miss loving Chief. One of the fun parts about writing this fic is that since Cally doesn't die, Chief doesn't go completely over the edge and turn into the utter asshole he was in 4.5.

And thanks on Danielle. I like her very much- she's very clear-eyed, very empathetic, and in some ways, she'd make an awesome teacher.

Glad you're enjoying it!

rose_griffes February 12 2010, 17:37:49 UTC

I have so much love for a limited POV. Especially for how you're writing this with Cally's perspective and still able to show us that there are other opinions out there (and that maybe some of those might be better) without vilifying Cally for her beliefs and choices.

Resurrection Hubs and kidnapped Presidents were worrisome, but Cally was used to knowing only part of the story and having to live her life anyway.
Awww...

"Open minded?" Cally demanded incredulously. "This isn't a matter of a different religion or a different planet! It's not like the Sagittarons or something! It's-"YES!!! THIS! Augh! Sorry, this hit my Cally-hate nerve (I hate Cally-hate), but so many people who argue that she should have reacted differently when meeting with Boomer on New Caprica, for example, don't take into account that this is MORE than just a disagreement and Cally should be more open-minded ( ... )

lls_mutant February 12 2010, 19:41:08 UTC

Thanks so much!!!!!

YES!!! THIS! Augh! Sorry, this hit my Cally-hate nerve (I hate Cally-hate), but so many people who argue that she should have reacted differently when meeting with Boomer on New Caprica, for example, don't take into account that this is MORE than just a disagreement and Cally should be more open-minded.
Thanks! One of the things I really think that RDM failed in a bit was recognizing the scope of his apocolypse. He had a lot of 9/11 elements in it, which in many ways I agree with. But at the same time, there are major differences between 9/11 and what the Cylons did. For one, 9/11 cost a lot of lives, but not all but 50K lives. I mean, I can imagine forgiving someone who killed my sibling or my parent. I can even imagine forgiving someone who killed my husband. I can almost (but not quite) imagine forgiving someone who killed my sons. (I can imagine it better if they were more fully grown.) But I just can't imagine forgiving someone who killed ALL of them, plus all of my friends and all of my enemies. At ( ... )

grey_sw February 12 2010, 21:58:15 UTC

But all of the Cylons voted for this genocide. They all perpetuated it. And not one single one of them- even Athena- has said "I'm really sorry for what we did." That bugs the hell out of me that we're supposed to be so forgiving when in this case, the racists actually are right in what they're saying (although I give the Final Five a pass).It's worth noting that this is exactly the same kind of prejudice and anger that led Cavil to nuke the colonies in the first place. There were no humans who weren't part of a society which rose on the backs of enslaved Cylons, after all, nor were there any humans who apologized for treating the Cylons like less-than-human appliances, even after they knew better. Just as the Cylons thought they could just walk away from genocide, the Colonials pretty clearly thought they could walk away from what they'd done to the Cylons... until it turned out the other side wasn't ready to forgive and forget ( ... )

lls_mutant February 13 2010, 01:40:07 UTC

I definitely like the moral ambiguity- I guess my point is I just wish the writers had included MORE of it. If we'd been presented with the final version of the Cylons and their position on the genocide earlier, rather than the constant retcons of who was in on it, I'd be more inclined to be forgiving myself. But the way it was initially set up... it was very much "Go genocide!" And given how many years it had been since the first Cylon war and all the people who had been born since.... There's more of a case for human innocence than Cylon. (But then, the Cylons also started out by snapping a baby's neck. That just was a moment I can't forget, given the hormones I had going when I watched it for the first time :) )

I don't necessarily agree with Cally- I'm more along the lines of Helo that genocide is never the answer- but at the same time, if I was in her shoes I'm not sure I wouldn't be saying the same thing. Not flattering, but true.

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grey_sw February 12 2010, 22:40:10 UTC

Cally continues to be really good in this. I loved her RAR moments at Vireem; she was always a surprisingly hardcore character when she needed to be.

The suicide scene was tough... poor Hoshi. I have a hard time imagining that he'd do it with Felix right outside in the hall, but then again, Dee did the same. Frak Earth!

I have to say I really like the idea of Galen being less of a horrible guy in the end. The Chief was always one of my favorites, but between Nicky, Cally, and Tory, I think season 4 wrecked his character. It's like the writers deliberately chose the most selfish and hurtful way for him to react to everything. :(

I also like the Figurski/Danielle stuff -- the idea that the kiss was more than just a single YAY EARTH moment is interesting and believable. I always thought the deck gang were much more practical, everyday people than the pilots or the bridge bunnies... too bad we didn't get to see more of them on the show.

lls_mutant February 13 2010, 01:45:43 UTC

Thanks so much! I've liked Cally since Bastille Day, so that definitely inspired some of this.

I have a hard time imagining that he'd do it with Felix right outside in the hall, but then again, Dee did the same.

On the one hand, I hate to say it, but Felix just didn't matter much once Hoshi broke. He said his goodbyes and then... But to Hoshi's credit, he thought Felix was a lot further away, I think. Felix did turn around and backtrack and had almost made it back to the racks.

The Chief was always one of my favorites, but between Nicky, Cally, and Tory, I think season 4 wrecked his character. It's like the writers deliberately chose the most selfish and hurtful way for him to react to everything. :(
I HATED what they did with Galen in 4.5. I blame it all on them taking away Cally, so without Tory murdering Cally, we can have a far less assholish Galen. Galen started being my favorite character in the miniseries when his guys were being killed because they had to shut the door or so many more people would die, and he didn't ( ... )