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I never knew my dad could be so scary.
Seeing Alexis after 4 months of not was really good.
Who knew soberity could be so fun.
Who knew being a control freak could drive you to insanity.
I lost it. Infront of Ashley. And Alexis.I lost it.
I cant fucking do this anymore.
Oh, but I have to.
THEYRE MAKING US.
If I wernt fat, maybe I wouldnt be like this.
Theyre making us hate ourselves.
Faliure.
At everything.
I want control over my own mother fucking life.
I want to say NO.
I want to never come home again.
Yet, I sit here.
home.
Theyre trying to suck up to me now.
But I will never have the same respect for my dad ever again.
I fucking hated him yesterday.
I deserved it though, I guess.
I hate myself.
and I want to die.
Seeing Alexis after 4 months of not was really good.
Who knew soberity could be so fun.
Who knew being a control freak could drive you to insanity.
I lost it. Infront of Ashley. And Alexis.I lost it.
I cant fucking do this anymore.
Oh, but I have to.
THEYRE MAKING US.
If I wernt fat, maybe I wouldnt be like this.
Theyre making us hate ourselves.
Faliure.
At everything.
I want control over my own mother fucking life.
I want to say NO.
I want to never come home again.
Yet, I sit here.
home.
Theyre trying to suck up to me now.
But I will never have the same respect for my dad ever again.
I fucking hated him yesterday.
I deserved it though, I guess.
I hate myself.
and I want to die.