::i feel so much.but..::
I am so confused. I want to just cry my eyes out so I can make some sense of these feelings. Yet I cant find myself to cry for you because all you do is bring me joy. Ugggggggh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF everything I'm against feeling, I FEEL. You lighten my day, you bring me happiness, that no one has quite done before. I cant have a miserable look, because IM NOT. I'm lost, I'm a bitter bitch at times, but I am content with how things are, and whenever you are around my eyes shine and lips quiver in bliss. Dammit. My plans NEVER work out. So fuck plannin, I'm not gona fight this feeling. Theres a chance youll end up in the past like everyone else I've ever felt for, but hey w/e shit happens. and falling for someone happens. and boyy uve got me convulsing on the floor spinning.So ya um this entry is really odd. but this is exactly how I feel. Mehhhhhh!!!!@!@!@!@!@!@!@!