Unconditionally
I was thinking last night about what one thing i want in this world more than anything at all. Just the one thing that i could have that would make me happy no matter what else is going on in my life. And after a while i narrowed it down, without comparison... unconditional love of a signifigant other and the mutual love bad from me. Unconditional being non-conditional, meaning that no matter what you do or change about yourslef she will still love you just the same. Then i started thinking a bit more, and i started wondering if you were to change your self are you really your self anymore. I mean of course your still yourself but are you the keith that she unconditionally loves? If when you change yourself your not acually that keith anymore than does this unconditional love still apply to you. And if not then at what point of change do you become the new you? Is it something as suddel as a new hair cut or is it something more extreme like if you deside to become a born again catholic, or is it somewhere inbetween?? so with all this taken into consideration can unconditional love only exist if both people stay exactly the same their whole lives? but then if thats true then it gets rid of the whole concept of loving someone unconditionally because you wont have any chang of conditions to test that.
so then i woke up this morning and layed in bed still thinking about this and it hits me, maybe there's some fundimental traits that we possess that just dont change ever no matter what happens to the person and these traits could serve as the essence that we unconditionally love about a person. So i layed there starring at my ceiling and thought of some examples of some of these because i for one am a hopless romantic and believe their must be some kind of true behind love at first site and unconditional love.
I donno if any of these things would proove to you that unconditional love exists but for me i thought that these things proove it enough:
When you look into her eyes you become lost in everything that she is, but for those few moments you wish you were lost forever. And while you are lost in the deep beauty of her eyes everything seems so clear and simple, the cards just fall into place and everything's perfect.
When you hold her close and you smell her scent, ( and not the scent of her porfume or her sweat but that core smell that everyone one has, the one that people smell when they say "it smells like.... you" ) you breathe it in and it makes you feel so alive like nothing else has, not even drugs match in comparision to the manic uphoria that you feel... but at the same time you feel truely at home and feel like you could stay with her close to you forever because its where you belong.
When you hear her voice and it all at once makes you excited happy and scared at the same time. Excited because you know soon your gonna hear your name iterated from her lovly voice, happy because you know she loves you like you love her and scared because you never wanna go a day when you have to think im never gonna hear that voice in my ears ever again.
So yea sorry if this all sounds way to sappy for you but its my lj and the point of these is to post your thoughts right? right.
ok i guess thats about it right now. i donno what im gonna do for the rest of the day, maybe ill post about my latest happenings later on tonight if i feel up for it.
till next time
later guys,
~keith
so then i woke up this morning and layed in bed still thinking about this and it hits me, maybe there's some fundimental traits that we possess that just dont change ever no matter what happens to the person and these traits could serve as the essence that we unconditionally love about a person. So i layed there starring at my ceiling and thought of some examples of some of these because i for one am a hopless romantic and believe their must be some kind of true behind love at first site and unconditional love.
I donno if any of these things would proove to you that unconditional love exists but for me i thought that these things proove it enough:
When you look into her eyes you become lost in everything that she is, but for those few moments you wish you were lost forever. And while you are lost in the deep beauty of her eyes everything seems so clear and simple, the cards just fall into place and everything's perfect.
When you hold her close and you smell her scent, ( and not the scent of her porfume or her sweat but that core smell that everyone one has, the one that people smell when they say "it smells like.... you" ) you breathe it in and it makes you feel so alive like nothing else has, not even drugs match in comparision to the manic uphoria that you feel... but at the same time you feel truely at home and feel like you could stay with her close to you forever because its where you belong.
When you hear her voice and it all at once makes you excited happy and scared at the same time. Excited because you know soon your gonna hear your name iterated from her lovly voice, happy because you know she loves you like you love her and scared because you never wanna go a day when you have to think im never gonna hear that voice in my ears ever again.
So yea sorry if this all sounds way to sappy for you but its my lj and the point of these is to post your thoughts right? right.
ok i guess thats about it right now. i donno what im gonna do for the rest of the day, maybe ill post about my latest happenings later on tonight if i feel up for it.
till next time
later guys,
~keith