matt...
matt and i decided we would wait a few weeks before talking again...
this morning marks the day we are allowed to talk to each other again apparently.
i have been worried about this for weeks.....
is it good that he messaged me at 230am? does that mean that he actually cared?
or did he do it to try to shut me up?
im so scared ill do something wrong...
im so afraid that he will hurt me again... or ill hurt myself :(
should i mention the questions i want to know? should i keep it perfectly calm? if so, that just might kill me because no matter how much i sit and plan this, it will probably be a result of me just freaking out.... i dont know if i even want to talk to him.....
i was doing alright without him.... just thinking of him kills me....i hate this. with every fiber of my being..... i dont know what to do....
please.. help me before i have a panic attack...
this morning marks the day we are allowed to talk to each other again apparently.
i have been worried about this for weeks.....
is it good that he messaged me at 230am? does that mean that he actually cared?
or did he do it to try to shut me up?
im so scared ill do something wrong...
im so afraid that he will hurt me again... or ill hurt myself :(
should i mention the questions i want to know? should i keep it perfectly calm? if so, that just might kill me because no matter how much i sit and plan this, it will probably be a result of me just freaking out.... i dont know if i even want to talk to him.....
i was doing alright without him.... just thinking of him kills me....i hate this. with every fiber of my being..... i dont know what to do....
please.. help me before i have a panic attack...