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its been a long time since i've written anything of meaning in here so here is an attempt.
First things first... I've been engaged to Dan since july 22nd. We were out in Rhode Island for a couple of days and he proposed to me while we were there. He is really the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Second. My mother sold the house. We have to move out supposedly by the 10th of november. Yeah so i'm procrastinating and sort of in denial. It makes me really sad to have to leave what i've known as my home for my entire life. I just feel like part of me will always be missing after this.
So Dan and i are looking for a place to live. hopefully we'll find one soon and i won't have to move twice. I feel bad all the time leaving kitty home and staying at his house and i feel bad leaving him alone and staying home for kitty. So it will just be good when we can all live together. I'm just torn between the two every day, and it kills me.
I've given up temporarily on the whole esthetics thing. yeah i like it but i don't like playing by anyone elses rules (as i'm sure you know if you know me). So I'm going to wait until i move somewhere permanently and start up again. I'll probably be in a different state so i'll have to get my liscense there and stuff, but i really hope to be able to do it part time out of my house. That would be really awesome, and then maybe someday open my own place. who knows, maybe i'll just forget it almost entirely and just do my friends.
Speaking of friends, i've felt very disconnected from them lately. I know it's my fault since i work crazy hours and so do they and we never call and i am always with dan but i miss them.
I'm working at Avis at the airport, usually until midnight or later. I like it for the most part, I just don't know how long i can hold out doing nights 5 days a week. I do like it very much on payday though. I haven't made this much in a week in a long time. maybe ever. so i really can't complain.
what else. i'm just stressed the fuck out with all this moving bullshit. my mom and ron had put all of my stuff that was in my attic out in the back room. It was already boxed up from previous moves and such, but i needed to go through it and decide what was important and what isn't. So i threw about 3/4 of it away. a lot of it was a reminder of my life, most of which i don't want to relive, so i just got rid of it without a second thought.
Dan and i are going to see Ani next weekend. I'm excited, but we need to find a place to stay. I should be looking forward to it more and a lot of things more but i'm just not. I am just not happy right now. I think once i find a place to live and get that shit settled i'll be in a much better mood.
i'm going to bed. maybe i won't have fucked up dreams tonight.
First things first... I've been engaged to Dan since july 22nd. We were out in Rhode Island for a couple of days and he proposed to me while we were there. He is really the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Second. My mother sold the house. We have to move out supposedly by the 10th of november. Yeah so i'm procrastinating and sort of in denial. It makes me really sad to have to leave what i've known as my home for my entire life. I just feel like part of me will always be missing after this.
So Dan and i are looking for a place to live. hopefully we'll find one soon and i won't have to move twice. I feel bad all the time leaving kitty home and staying at his house and i feel bad leaving him alone and staying home for kitty. So it will just be good when we can all live together. I'm just torn between the two every day, and it kills me.
I've given up temporarily on the whole esthetics thing. yeah i like it but i don't like playing by anyone elses rules (as i'm sure you know if you know me). So I'm going to wait until i move somewhere permanently and start up again. I'll probably be in a different state so i'll have to get my liscense there and stuff, but i really hope to be able to do it part time out of my house. That would be really awesome, and then maybe someday open my own place. who knows, maybe i'll just forget it almost entirely and just do my friends.
Speaking of friends, i've felt very disconnected from them lately. I know it's my fault since i work crazy hours and so do they and we never call and i am always with dan but i miss them.
I'm working at Avis at the airport, usually until midnight or later. I like it for the most part, I just don't know how long i can hold out doing nights 5 days a week. I do like it very much on payday though. I haven't made this much in a week in a long time. maybe ever. so i really can't complain.
what else. i'm just stressed the fuck out with all this moving bullshit. my mom and ron had put all of my stuff that was in my attic out in the back room. It was already boxed up from previous moves and such, but i needed to go through it and decide what was important and what isn't. So i threw about 3/4 of it away. a lot of it was a reminder of my life, most of which i don't want to relive, so i just got rid of it without a second thought.
Dan and i are going to see Ani next weekend. I'm excited, but we need to find a place to stay. I should be looking forward to it more and a lot of things more but i'm just not. I am just not happy right now. I think once i find a place to live and get that shit settled i'll be in a much better mood.
i'm going to bed. maybe i won't have fucked up dreams tonight.