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I'm finding it hard to digest everything that has happened. My head is so cluttered from the commotion of it all. I cannot believe it. I can't pretend that what happened wasn't partly my fault, because it was. No it wasn't. But I need someone to blame for it. Everything that happened was not in any way intentional. Nothing was supposed to happen and I'm so horrified and sickened that something did.
One glance lead to a smile. A smile lead to a conversation. A conversation lead to a few drinks. A few drinks lead to...
It was just one of those encounters, one of those accidents, where something happens all of a sudden. And you let it happen without thinking of what is actually happening. You're too taken aback and drunk to actually understand the situation, so you have no way of stopping it. And so you just let it happen, and before you know it, time passes and it finally hits you. And you're left with it, all on your own. You're afraid to tell anyone because if you do you have no idea what the consequences will be.
What if you lose everything?
I'm just confused right now. I'm still not sure what happened -- if anything did happen. I don't know... it feels like my whole world has been turned upside-down and I have no idea what to do to make everything right. Is it possible even to fix things after something like this has/or most likely has happened? What do I do? I've messed everything up and I'm all alone. I'm stuck and it's all because of one mistake. Just one mistake. Maybe I could've tried harder to stop it from happening, I don't know, but it's too late now and I've ruined everything!
Best of Everything,
Claire
One glance lead to a smile. A smile lead to a conversation. A conversation lead to a few drinks. A few drinks lead to...
It was just one of those encounters, one of those accidents, where something happens all of a sudden. And you let it happen without thinking of what is actually happening. You're too taken aback and drunk to actually understand the situation, so you have no way of stopping it. And so you just let it happen, and before you know it, time passes and it finally hits you. And you're left with it, all on your own. You're afraid to tell anyone because if you do you have no idea what the consequences will be.
What if you lose everything?
I'm just confused right now. I'm still not sure what happened -- if anything did happen. I don't know... it feels like my whole world has been turned upside-down and I have no idea what to do to make everything right. Is it possible even to fix things after something like this has/or most likely has happened? What do I do? I've messed everything up and I'm all alone. I'm stuck and it's all because of one mistake. Just one mistake. Maybe I could've tried harder to stop it from happening, I don't know, but it's too late now and I've ruined everything!
Best of Everything,
Claire