I love life
I really do! but sometimes...it just gets me down, you know?
My family is going on vacation and I'm staying behind because I have work. And I'm not really complaining about the work because it's not anything soul-crushing. It's a wonderful job and I get paid for making something beautiful. It's probably the best thing for my soul right now, "like gold to airy thinness beat"*.
But I want to go to the beach. I want to get swept away by a wave and I want to taste salt in my mouth and my eyes and feel the sand get up my bathing suit. I want to forget calendars forever and I want to remember what it was like to be timeless. I want to build a wonderful sand castle and watch it get swept away with the tide. I want to see "the little waves with their soft white hands/efface the footprints in the sand"**
I want it all and I don't want to choose or think about anything besides what I'm doing at this moment. But there's always going to be something amazing that I'm not doing. I think when that attitude takes over, you lose your childhood. But I will not be lost! I will "Beware the jub-jub bird and shun/The frumious bandersnatch"***. But I need your help! Send me something that will make me happy to be alive and here and now.
*A Valediction, Forbidding Mourning - John Donne
**The Tide Rises, The Tide Falls - Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
***Jabberwocky - Charles Lutwidge Dodgson (Lewis Carroll)
My family is going on vacation and I'm staying behind because I have work. And I'm not really complaining about the work because it's not anything soul-crushing. It's a wonderful job and I get paid for making something beautiful. It's probably the best thing for my soul right now, "like gold to airy thinness beat"*.
But I want to go to the beach. I want to get swept away by a wave and I want to taste salt in my mouth and my eyes and feel the sand get up my bathing suit. I want to forget calendars forever and I want to remember what it was like to be timeless. I want to build a wonderful sand castle and watch it get swept away with the tide. I want to see "the little waves with their soft white hands/efface the footprints in the sand"**
I want it all and I don't want to choose or think about anything besides what I'm doing at this moment. But there's always going to be something amazing that I'm not doing. I think when that attitude takes over, you lose your childhood. But I will not be lost! I will "Beware the jub-jub bird and shun/The frumious bandersnatch"***. But I need your help! Send me something that will make me happy to be alive and here and now.
*A Valediction, Forbidding Mourning - John Donne
**The Tide Rises, The Tide Falls - Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
***Jabberwocky - Charles Lutwidge Dodgson (Lewis Carroll)