and now hes gone....

[lizzie_kiss]

 Its sad really...... hes gone...... hes getting married to a girl that hes only been dating for 4 months...... i want him to be happy but not with a 26 year old mother of 5...... but i think the saddest part of knowing hes getting married is that she really and truly makes him happy...... but hes not mine...... i shouldnt hold on to the past so tightly...... I loved him once...... and i think i always will..... but were happy..... he with his girl and im happy with my man..... i dont know why we couldnt make each other happy...... but all of that is over now...... i will smile at his wedding and baby sit his kids........ if he marries her he will have 5....... but now the love needs to stop..... so for one last time i will say.......

I love you Douglas, I always have, I always will......

You will forever be my douggie..... and I your baka-sagi

I Love You.......