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Another relapse. I seem to be having a few lately. I can't really say that it's behind me now...
But fuck it. I wanted to. And I think I can fucking do what I want for a change. I think I deserve that much
"If you don't put yourself first, no one else will". How very true.
I just feel completely insignificant. Completely ignored. I don't matter to anyone. I might not always be here. I might just up and leave. Not that anyone would really notice. Maybe only when they need something from me.
Everything just builds up. Broken promises. Times when I think I deserve a little something I'm completely overlooked. Taken advantage of. Avoided, maybe...
And it's really lonely here. All the people who might give a damn are 3 hours or more away from me. I have tried. I'm just ignored. Just confirms what I've always thought.
It's times like this where nothing really seems worth it anymore. Why should I even bother?
But fuck it. I wanted to. And I think I can fucking do what I want for a change. I think I deserve that much
"If you don't put yourself first, no one else will". How very true.
I just feel completely insignificant. Completely ignored. I don't matter to anyone. I might not always be here. I might just up and leave. Not that anyone would really notice. Maybe only when they need something from me.
Everything just builds up. Broken promises. Times when I think I deserve a little something I'm completely overlooked. Taken advantage of. Avoided, maybe...
And it's really lonely here. All the people who might give a damn are 3 hours or more away from me. I have tried. I'm just ignored. Just confirms what I've always thought.
It's times like this where nothing really seems worth it anymore. Why should I even bother?