"Can I have a hug?
That's usually how we tell one another that we're having a bad day and need help pulling out of it.
This time it was followed up with no doubt of course DURING THE HUG
"You know you put me in this bad mood"
That really makes me feel like I should keep hugging you.
LIfe has not been simple or easy. I watched a speech by J.>K Rowling and she said there is no nobility or pride in being poor. It's not special.
She's right it's not special it's just harrowing and depressing. The only character it builds is the kind that tries its best to scrap through every situation.
I have a job that pays 9 dollars an hour and I only work two days a week. I don't have a car to get to a second job which I need to pay for the car i would need to get there. Nor do I have time in my schedule because I'm still trying to get out of school. i Have to move to a house fairly far from my school that commuting there is almost impossible or at least commute for a few hours.
I hate my life right now and somehow I still fucking manage to wake up every day and get something semi productive done with my poor ass. I scrap together ways to get places and do things and I smile fucking every day so people don't get the complete inkling of exactly how wasted I think my life is.
I don't know where money for a car will come from or even what the fuck I'm goign to do with my major once I graduate all I know is that I pretty much sit around feeling pretty awful about everything almost all the time. I don't know where my rent will come from or even how I'm going to get around that week.
Then I hear about a friend of mine who amost commited suicide., He has no good reaosn other than feeling shitty and I am just like flabber gasted because I fucking manage to make in this world and he has all these things I don't.
LIke a fucking functional job, a living father, a god damn car, a fucking house of his own \
and he wantsto commit suicide? Well do me a fucking favor you fat piece of shit and write me into your god damn will that way when you have your pathetic and obvioulsy somewhat useless life ends some good will come from it.
I'm depressed all the time and I don't try anythign sneaky to try and get off this train early
So fuck you eddie.
Get it over with already because all your useless life is doing is making me feel more annoyed with my own. if you arne't going to try and improve hurry up and just jump in the oven.
This time it was followed up with no doubt of course DURING THE HUG
"You know you put me in this bad mood"
That really makes me feel like I should keep hugging you.
LIfe has not been simple or easy. I watched a speech by J.>K Rowling and she said there is no nobility or pride in being poor. It's not special.
She's right it's not special it's just harrowing and depressing. The only character it builds is the kind that tries its best to scrap through every situation.
I have a job that pays 9 dollars an hour and I only work two days a week. I don't have a car to get to a second job which I need to pay for the car i would need to get there. Nor do I have time in my schedule because I'm still trying to get out of school. i Have to move to a house fairly far from my school that commuting there is almost impossible or at least commute for a few hours.
I hate my life right now and somehow I still fucking manage to wake up every day and get something semi productive done with my poor ass. I scrap together ways to get places and do things and I smile fucking every day so people don't get the complete inkling of exactly how wasted I think my life is.
I don't know where money for a car will come from or even what the fuck I'm goign to do with my major once I graduate all I know is that I pretty much sit around feeling pretty awful about everything almost all the time. I don't know where my rent will come from or even how I'm going to get around that week.
Then I hear about a friend of mine who amost commited suicide., He has no good reaosn other than feeling shitty and I am just like flabber gasted because I fucking manage to make in this world and he has all these things I don't.
LIke a fucking functional job, a living father, a god damn car, a fucking house of his own \
and he wantsto commit suicide? Well do me a fucking favor you fat piece of shit and write me into your god damn will that way when you have your pathetic and obvioulsy somewhat useless life ends some good will come from it.
I'm depressed all the time and I don't try anythign sneaky to try and get off this train early
So fuck you eddie.
Get it over with already because all your useless life is doing is making me feel more annoyed with my own. if you arne't going to try and improve hurry up and just jump in the oven.