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So what's up? I hung out with Tracey this afternoon for girl talk and bonding. Good stuff!
Madison's spay is today. Drop off is at 7-9 and pick up is 3-5. J's mom showed us where it is and how to get there.
Stuff with me? I feel great about J and me. I love him and the connection is tangible. I went shell on him a few days ago. Synopsis: I went off the paxil a couple days and expressed too firmly that we needed to get two cars so I could do my thing without having to wait for him to come home. Before that he'd given me a ring earned by being a 5 year employee at bilo but wouldn't confirm whether it was a gift or a symbol of his sentiments so I was wearing it on a necklace. I gave it back when I went shell. Now I'm waiting to see if he'll give it back more symbolically. It boils down to the fact that he's afraid of marriage because of his family's track record and I want a commitment from him to confirm that his feelings are equivelent in strength compared to mine.
School's for shit. I don't know what's going on. I don't want to disappoint my dad and Jeffrey who have afforded me these opportunities. So I try not to think about it. Basically, I'm on thin ice with my GPA from last semester and I'm just passing a couple of my courses this semester.... eeek!
Overall, my life is uneventful and I thank God for it! After that wreck and hearing that Jeffrey was afraid I was dead (and I was scared for him... our first actions were to look at eachother and simultaniously ask "are you OK?") that I really try not to sweat things and just thank goodness I'm breathing (no thanks to allergies) and in a life with Jeffrey and my pets... (and even better that the sun's out!).
Madison's spay is today. Drop off is at 7-9 and pick up is 3-5. J's mom showed us where it is and how to get there.
Stuff with me? I feel great about J and me. I love him and the connection is tangible. I went shell on him a few days ago. Synopsis: I went off the paxil a couple days and expressed too firmly that we needed to get two cars so I could do my thing without having to wait for him to come home. Before that he'd given me a ring earned by being a 5 year employee at bilo but wouldn't confirm whether it was a gift or a symbol of his sentiments so I was wearing it on a necklace. I gave it back when I went shell. Now I'm waiting to see if he'll give it back more symbolically. It boils down to the fact that he's afraid of marriage because of his family's track record and I want a commitment from him to confirm that his feelings are equivelent in strength compared to mine.
School's for shit. I don't know what's going on. I don't want to disappoint my dad and Jeffrey who have afforded me these opportunities. So I try not to think about it. Basically, I'm on thin ice with my GPA from last semester and I'm just passing a couple of my courses this semester.... eeek!
Overall, my life is uneventful and I thank God for it! After that wreck and hearing that Jeffrey was afraid I was dead (and I was scared for him... our first actions were to look at eachother and simultaniously ask "are you OK?") that I really try not to sweat things and just thank goodness I'm breathing (no thanks to allergies) and in a life with Jeffrey and my pets... (and even better that the sun's out!).