Looking Back
Blew up at The Mother yesterday. Guess I'm tired of the anger and guilt that's being dumped onto me. Or at least that's how I feel. I know as a dutiful daughter I must provide a listening ear, I think I usually do a decent job. But I don't like to hear about the same problems. Over and over. If you're so unhappy about it, do something about it. Otherwise, move on. And it's important to recognise what is within your control and what is not. There's no point getting angry about things you can't do something about. Or rather, it's human to get angry, but either do something about it or else rant about it, then let it go. SIGH. I just wish that she'd learn to live for herself without feeling the anger/guilt.
Anyway, on my part, I resolve to be loving but detached. It sounds odd, but I think it's necessary cos I can't keep on drowning in the drama that's heaped onto me, and on top of that, I would prefer to have an at least civil relationship with my dad, odd though he may be.
*BREATHE*
anyway...
It was a pretty fantastic year, what can I say? It started very angsty-ly and is ending a little that way, but overall, I have no complaints. I feel like January 2008 is a long way off - I've overcome one of the issues from then (the Fongzai thing) and I'm figuring out ways to deal with one of the main issue, the Parents thing, albeit slowly. "Career"-wise, I'm kinda in limbo, but I feel certain that I will close the Media path for now at least, and the next path will soon appear for me. As for the love life, I find I'm not very concerned, at least not since late September :) The one thing I've been in denial about though, has been health. hehe. So looks like it'll have to be top priority next year.
There are so many people and things I'm thankful for, like all my wonderful friends who send me stuff or indulge me by listening to me talk about strange and weird things or simply just hang out with me, then there's those passing contacts who offered a fresh perspective or two, like those wonderful people who I meet while teaching... It was really nice to make a couple of friends at the school - one of my former clients even gave me her fridge when she moved to Chicago, I still can't believe it! Jaw-dropping. And of course I'm also on-my-knees grateful to that whoever that immigration officer is who approved my visa application so quickly.
Didn't have much time to update in the 2nd half of the year, but even though it was crazy-hectic between moving house and working 6 days of the week, people coming and going was probably the highlight of the 2nd half of 2008. Oh, the other MAJOR highlight was my li'l bro getting married to his lovely, very nice, big eyes, long straight black hair and fair bride. :) That's what he wished for when he was a little boy. Momo asked if The Mother got emo, but I don't think she did really - she was more tired than anything I reckon. Turns out that I'm the one who teared up when I saw my baby brother coming through the doors for the wedding dinner. I think they're quite made for each other, so I'm really happy for them (BUT envious of their gorgeous flat!). I wonder when I will have nieces and nephews to torture play with.
The other rather significant thing was that I had a soul reading and realignment done. There's too much to explain what it IS exactly, but I'm lucky to say a lot of things that appeared in my report either resonated deeply within me, or opened my eyes to new ways to grow. It really brought home that the things I've been exposed to, or exposed myself to, are completely synergistic and have come together to bring me to this current place in time. There are concepts I haven't been able to wrap my mind around exactly, but it's always fun to explore and figure things out for myself so I don't really mind.
Now I just have to keep an eye out for what's next. :)
Anyway, on my part, I resolve to be loving but detached. It sounds odd, but I think it's necessary cos I can't keep on drowning in the drama that's heaped onto me, and on top of that, I would prefer to have an at least civil relationship with my dad, odd though he may be.
*BREATHE*
anyway...
It was a pretty fantastic year, what can I say? It started very angsty-ly and is ending a little that way, but overall, I have no complaints. I feel like January 2008 is a long way off - I've overcome one of the issues from then (the Fongzai thing) and I'm figuring out ways to deal with one of the main issue, the Parents thing, albeit slowly. "Career"-wise, I'm kinda in limbo, but I feel certain that I will close the Media path for now at least, and the next path will soon appear for me. As for the love life, I find I'm not very concerned, at least not since late September :) The one thing I've been in denial about though, has been health. hehe. So looks like it'll have to be top priority next year.
There are so many people and things I'm thankful for, like all my wonderful friends who send me stuff or indulge me by listening to me talk about strange and weird things or simply just hang out with me, then there's those passing contacts who offered a fresh perspective or two, like those wonderful people who I meet while teaching... It was really nice to make a couple of friends at the school - one of my former clients even gave me her fridge when she moved to Chicago, I still can't believe it! Jaw-dropping. And of course I'm also on-my-knees grateful to that whoever that immigration officer is who approved my visa application so quickly.
Didn't have much time to update in the 2nd half of the year, but even though it was crazy-hectic between moving house and working 6 days of the week, people coming and going was probably the highlight of the 2nd half of 2008. Oh, the other MAJOR highlight was my li'l bro getting married to his lovely, very nice, big eyes, long straight black hair and fair bride. :) That's what he wished for when he was a little boy. Momo asked if The Mother got emo, but I don't think she did really - she was more tired than anything I reckon. Turns out that I'm the one who teared up when I saw my baby brother coming through the doors for the wedding dinner. I think they're quite made for each other, so I'm really happy for them (BUT envious of their gorgeous flat!). I wonder when I will have nieces and nephews to torture play with.
The other rather significant thing was that I had a soul reading and realignment done. There's too much to explain what it IS exactly, but I'm lucky to say a lot of things that appeared in my report either resonated deeply within me, or opened my eyes to new ways to grow. It really brought home that the things I've been exposed to, or exposed myself to, are completely synergistic and have come together to bring me to this current place in time. There are concepts I haven't been able to wrap my mind around exactly, but it's always fun to explore and figure things out for myself so I don't really mind.
Now I just have to keep an eye out for what's next. :)