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as a general update: some stuff happened that I (really) thought was going to work. in the end (three weeks later), i have some rather telling evidence that it will not.i'm not too disappointed, however. i'm a little hurt, a little angry, a little confused... but not enough to elicit a full expose here. i had forgotten, though, what it was like to be held. it will be hard to put that away again.
in other news... i'm really enjoying being done with my degree. for the first time in my life, i feel a genuine sense of ease about my direction. i still plan on attending grad school, but, for the time being, i'm not in a constant state of planning and worrying.
i'm quite looking forward to my trip to europe, though i am (more than) a little worried about the financial side of things. i don't think i care all that much at the moment, though. i'd rather go and be in debt than know i had the chance and didn't take it.
outside of the occasional (i usally have 2-7 engagements during a week) teaching gig,quartet rehearsal, wedding, or babysitting adventure with max (he told me he wanted to marry me when he is grown) and lucia... i don't do a whole lot. i walk around my neighborhood and down to the park. i read. i play music by myself or with my friends. i'm learning mandolin. i've got a long list of other instruments to try and procure: violin, keyboard, ukelele, accordion...maybe a mic? i don't know what magical income will provide me enough extra cash to get these things...
i've written some songs. i'm gonna try and write some lyrics, i guess. other people's lyrics always just sound better to me... we'll see what happens.