upon hearing beautiful music
there are two men who will never know.
they will never know how close i have, and despite my best efforts to quit, still do hold them in my heart.
i don't know why i picked those most unlikely of men. if i had my wish, i'd forget.
i am sad and mad that those two (really, one more than the other...but both in significant ways) still effect my life on a nearly daily basis.
i miss them like real friends.
i miss them like i really loved them.
and, given the circumstances, neither of those things could have really happened.
i am very frustrated with myself about this.
i am open to new love. i am open to new love. i am open to new love. i am open to new love. i am open to new love. i am open. i am open. i am love. i am open love. i am
they will never know how close i have, and despite my best efforts to quit, still do hold them in my heart.
i don't know why i picked those most unlikely of men. if i had my wish, i'd forget.
i am sad and mad that those two (really, one more than the other...but both in significant ways) still effect my life on a nearly daily basis.
i miss them like real friends.
i miss them like i really loved them.
and, given the circumstances, neither of those things could have really happened.
i am very frustrated with myself about this.
i am open to new love. i am open to new love. i am open to new love. i am open to new love. i am open to new love. i am open. i am open. i am love. i am open love. i am