i'm back. kinda.
so yeah. I dont quite know why I put this back. I guess I just wanted to be albe to go back and read about all the things that happened over the past couple of years. it's funny to see how much I've changed. went from sweet innocent little girl just starting college to the more callused one, dealing with things in really stupid ways. oh well. i guess we learn from everything. i just wish i could take back a lot of the stuf i did. especially last year. there were so many things that went wrong. dated brian. that was one of my biggest mistakes. three months of hell and i was too stubborn/stupid to break it off any sooner. then again. with all the shit that he threatened me with if i did break up with him... i can see why i was reluctant. fooled around with alex. actually liked him just to find out a lot of shit about him that i didn't like. when i tried to get his side of things he just called my mom and i fucking childish and so on. not worth it. haven't talked to him since. stayed single for most of the year. met another brian. actually liked him. nothing super great but he was the one i couldn't have. led me on for six months. he was my little toy but then i found out i was his little joke. we're friends now but it bit to find out he was lying the whole time. my parents splitting up and all the shit that came with that. the ackwardness of being at home. the constant fights between them, between mom and i. dad coming to me asking about mom. them both venting to me about the other. grades dropping. bastard teachers... yeah. the list could really go on about the shit of last year. then again a few good things happened. i met some really amazing people. i love em to death and no matter what happens this year they've got my back. what more could i ask for? well, considering i just wasted my entire morning doing this i should probably head out to class so my grades dont drop any more.