Jun 07, 2005 09:52
I have no idea how I did on this test. Luckily I didn't have to do all the crap I spent all day yesterday studying for because I still didn't get it but I spend an hour and fourty minutes on one test. That has to be a record for me. I'm normally only in there for about thirty minutes tops if it was a hard one. Anyway. On a different note I'm really glad I didn't go through with ti on saturday. I never really realized how much I loved him until I was about to push him away. I think that's why I did that in the first place. I tend to be scared of anyone getting too close to me. I'm always worried that if I let them get really close I'm going to wind up getting hurt. I've just come to the conclusion that oh well, if it happens it happens. I can't push away someone I love just cause he "might" hurt me somewhere along the line. I'll handle it when and if it comes. So one good thing did come out of a bad thing. Doesn't always happen but this time it did. I'm really glad we're still together now. For the first time in a while I can actually enjoy being in love. I can actually let myself enjoy it. Well now off to my next hour or so of torture.