It's been a while...
Not even sure where to start here...
I'm sooo full of mixed feelings about everything as of lately. Some bad, but soom good too.
I'm afraid that I'm always gonna have this emotional rollercoaster in my head.
I'm afraid that I'm going to always be alone.
I'm afraid that I'm actaully going to not make it through.
I'm afraid that these nightmares aren't ever going to go away so I will stop being afraid to sleep.
I'm excited that I have this chance to prove to the world (again) that I'm strong enough for this.
I'm excited that I might be able to run again soon.
I'm excited that I found a beach.
I'm excited for the concert Saturday.
The nightmares are getting so much worse. I don't even know how to deal with them anymore. I'd tell you about them but they are much much much too aweful to put into text. I really dont know what to do about them...not sleeping is getting old.
On a good not, I found the most beautiful spot today. It's much like my spot in Port Austin. The only disadvantage is that I need a car to get there. There's this beach with a breakwall about fifteen minutes from here. It's absolutely beautiful and everything just melts away when I'm there.
Don't meet people from the internet...even if they do go to your school...
There is an amazing vintage store in downtown Grand Rapids...I'm in love with it. Not to mention I've been to at least two Goodwill's out here. That makes me smile.
It rains constantly here. I hate it with ever fiber of my being. Today was nice though, I was seriously thrilled.
I'm sooo full of mixed feelings about everything as of lately. Some bad, but soom good too.
I'm afraid that I'm always gonna have this emotional rollercoaster in my head.
I'm afraid that I'm going to always be alone.
I'm afraid that I'm actaully going to not make it through.
I'm afraid that these nightmares aren't ever going to go away so I will stop being afraid to sleep.
I'm excited that I have this chance to prove to the world (again) that I'm strong enough for this.
I'm excited that I might be able to run again soon.
I'm excited that I found a beach.
I'm excited for the concert Saturday.
The nightmares are getting so much worse. I don't even know how to deal with them anymore. I'd tell you about them but they are much much much too aweful to put into text. I really dont know what to do about them...not sleeping is getting old.
On a good not, I found the most beautiful spot today. It's much like my spot in Port Austin. The only disadvantage is that I need a car to get there. There's this beach with a breakwall about fifteen minutes from here. It's absolutely beautiful and everything just melts away when I'm there.
Don't meet people from the internet...even if they do go to your school...
There is an amazing vintage store in downtown Grand Rapids...I'm in love with it. Not to mention I've been to at least two Goodwill's out here. That makes me smile.
It rains constantly here. I hate it with ever fiber of my being. Today was nice though, I was seriously thrilled.