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Well this week has been a very revealing week for me - i spent a lot of time talking to my bfb about our relationship - i think that all the time spent thinking about it and talking openly and truthfully about it let me know a lot about myself and it was refreshing to be able to completely bare everything and be 100% open - i love this friendship that I have with my best friend - i love that we can cuddle and flirt and just be open and ourselves around each other - i love that i can have this open friendship while learning about myself - i hate that there was awkwardness between us when the ex came back into the picture - i hate that it took that to happen for me to realize what was really going on between us in our friendship - i hate that it took that long to finally stop and check feelings and realize that this is my best friend and that's all i want her to be - i hate that it happened but i think that getting everything out in the open was good for us and our friendship - i think that it cleared any questions that were lingering and i love that i was able to talk that openly because i'm normally much more reserved - i do still get upset about sharing time - simply because the time i get is constantly bombarded by texts from her - i think that once that is resolved i'll be able to stop letting her ruin my moods - last night and today sucked bc of that - other than that it was nice to get to talk to my bfb and have her home for awhile - ok tired - bedtime