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me dane and heather are supossed to go trick or treating together on halloween...but it dosnt feel right...the way i felt about him and meeting his gf..the one i envy with every drip of blood in my body...... god..i feel like a power line in the way of a beautiful sunset ....or a stain on your fav. shirt....it just shouldnt be there ... and neither should i....i think im just going to stop all contact with him..and that would mean heather too..i feel like a stupid whiny bitch but im pretty sure no one would mind if that stain came off by its self...well other than the whole dane and heather thing my life is going good...what am i saying?...every thing is falling apart....dad wont let me be alone anymore....he thinks im crasy..the school knows about me biting...well only one bite...but i wanted help and asked dane to get me it..he did...which i greatly apreciate but it wasnt such a great idea..oh and my chuck situiation...is not getting any better......he dosnt talk to me anymore..i guess thats a good thing...i wish he didnt live in our neighborhood...and i really wish he wasnt my brothers freind...like ryan and them so i could choose when i got to see him......but then i would have met him in the first place but that would be for the better too...speaking of ryan...well lets not...i havnt wrote about any of the LC cus i dont need to think about them...wow..thats like a whole other life over there...at crystals house...i have completely forgot about livingston ...i havnt been at crystals in a while...i guess its a good thing though...well i think thats all for now...im gonna write in my other journal