" Life shifts up and down everybody knows it's wrong."

[livingdeath]

So,I am amazingly still living in this apartment. Despite not being a fan of living here I have trudged on for 2 years so far. However I can feel it start to ware on me now more then ever. I don't really enjoy this stuck feeling very much. Like many of my friends I seem to be stuck in a spot I can't yet get out of. I know I will but I can't really see how its all gonna go do been told by a number of people that our similarities in character and style is a bit creepy. There is a still a feeling though a feeling of staying on my toes. He's said allot of very wonderful things to me but saying and doing are different things entirely. This also brings me to the point of...well this may sound crazy but i'm afraid I'll die. :C I mean my Sister and Mother are both dead...fate has it out for me I feel like...I don't want to possibly make all this happy life progress only to have the unspeakable happen to me later...I know I shouldn't worry about that but I do....I'm the only female left out of the family my Father made...life is very different now. Still Keith even told me he would protect me from everything the best he could...he really is grate so I can't see going on without him unless that's what he wanted. It's harder then ever to feel happy now and the fact that he can do this is really something...



I guess I have no choice but to see what happens...in other news me and Keith saw this documentary and it was wonderful and very moving. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7JUqrPwe7Lo
It's one of the best things I've seen in a while and I think it's a must see!