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i cant stop thinking about him and its driving me mad. oh god. actually cant handle this. i saw he was online on bebo so i sent him a private mail saying "hi, saw you were online which you rarely are, so thought id say hello" and now hes went offline and i feel like shit, my brains gone mad thinking, god why hasnt he replied, is he ignoring me??
its bloody stupid, i shouldnt have messaged him in the first place. i cant help it. i miss him so bad. it hurts, it proper physically hurts. oh god. i could honestly burst into tears right now. i want him back which is pathetic, i should be doing the "strong, confident woman" thing but i cant. i feel like im nothing without him. and i never ever thought id be one of those girls who would define themselves by who their man is. i need to get a grip.
i cant get him out my head. hes there, every minute. and i dream about him almost every night. i truely believe in karma, and its like, im a good person, i care about others, i treat people well. so what have i done to deserve my life turning to shit? and i dont care if this sounds all wah wah, poor me. this is the hardest thing ive ever gone through in my entire fucking life and i honestly, honestly cant see the point. theres no light at the end of my tunnel.
its bloody stupid, i shouldnt have messaged him in the first place. i cant help it. i miss him so bad. it hurts, it proper physically hurts. oh god. i could honestly burst into tears right now. i want him back which is pathetic, i should be doing the "strong, confident woman" thing but i cant. i feel like im nothing without him. and i never ever thought id be one of those girls who would define themselves by who their man is. i need to get a grip.
i cant get him out my head. hes there, every minute. and i dream about him almost every night. i truely believe in karma, and its like, im a good person, i care about others, i treat people well. so what have i done to deserve my life turning to shit? and i dont care if this sounds all wah wah, poor me. this is the hardest thing ive ever gone through in my entire fucking life and i honestly, honestly cant see the point. theres no light at the end of my tunnel.