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Men! They can be sooo trying. After asking Larry 2x if he wanted to go on a Mexican cruise with me next fall and getting either a noncommittal response, or no show of excitement, I asked 2 friends of mine if they want to go. One immediately said sure! Vickie was so excited, we haven't had much time to talk about it, but when she told Bud, he wasn't very happy. And he just got back from a 1 week hunting trip! Whats the difference? Anyway, when I told Larry I was going with Vickie you could see he was hurt, but he was also very supportive and encouraging me to go with Vickie for "girl time". I also told him I can't wait around for him to make a decision whether he wants to go or not somewhere. He's more of the fly by the seat of your pants type and I'm not. I love planning and anticpating something. There are some things in my life I want to do, see, or go. I can't keep planning my dreams, wants, desires in life around him. Thats not fair to either of us. So I'll start doing more with my friends and family. I told him when I make plans if he wants to he can go with me, if not, I'll go with someone else. He goes and does and sees all the time without me.
Seems like a part of my life is closing and another opening. Whenever that happens I spend some time grieving for the old, while anticipating the new (and also being scared too of the new). I just keep telling myself, "I'll be ok". I need to love myself as much as others do, be kind to myself.
Seems like a part of my life is closing and another opening. Whenever that happens I spend some time grieving for the old, while anticipating the new (and also being scared too of the new). I just keep telling myself, "I'll be ok". I need to love myself as much as others do, be kind to myself.