It is a beautiul day
... but I wont lie .. i feel so unaccomplished with life.. I am so tired of being stuck !.. I want to be in school and working and in Eugene .. argh ...
Today made fresh pesto with wonderful pot oil... It turned out so nice ... I still have quite a bit left .. I am wondering what lse I should try making .. the lady i got it from usually uses it in chocolate .. but it is more of a savory thing to me.
I am working a little more it is weird .. I start charging a flat fee of a $100 and people respond mor .. go figure.
Do not think Trader Joes is gonna hire me .. which makes me feel like shit .. I cannot get job grocery .. a monkey could do that job .. and if they didnt want me they could have at least returned my phone alls and not have me go to so many interviews.
I as a person am feeling pretty low ... I am lucky I have John ... he knows how to brighten my mood... and the kids ... the kids make me feel great .. i do so well with them.
I need motivation in life ... I need to do something differan .. this is NOT working for me ... I hate feeling depressed and like I suck.