*I jUsT dOn'T tHiNk I'Ll EvEr GeT oVeR yOu*
Today was his funeral. It's over. Finally. Now mom and the rest of the family can HEAL..I know Ricky wouldn't want everyone crying like they are. That's kinda been my motivation for staying upbeat and happy. Ricky wouldn't want us all sad. I'm definately going to miss him. So much. He protected me, made it VERY clear that he'd beat up any guy that messed with me or my heart. One good thing came out of his death though, his daughter Tegan. She looks just like him, it's amazing. She's...so perfect. And I guess if it had to happen, now's the better time. It's sad she won't have any memory of Ricky, but there are so many pictures of him with Tegan, and, well, she doesn't have to go through the pain we did. *sigh* But I will be strong. I have to be, if I'm not, who will be?
He got online today. And I missed him, of course. I don't know whats going on with that anymore. I can't be with someone I don't see. I think I may end it, just until we see each other. I care for him, a whole lot. More than I've cared about anyone like that before, but I can't "be with him" if I don't see him. It's too hard.
Audra and I went out tonight. I needed that. We talked about the most random stuff...lol. I told her some things that I wouldn't just tell anybody. It was great. I love her to death... :)
My Ashley came and saw me at work. I was sittin in my car for break and she and Jon pulled up. haha I love those two. They are SO freakin cute together. I hate it when they fight, I really do. I wish they'd just accept the fact that they think other people are hot, accept the fact that they probably don't have a chance with those people, and go on. haha Anyways, yeah, Ash looked totally cute in her skirt and polo. I love her!
I think that's all I have to write about. I'm tired..and I'm going into work tomorrow, so I better get to bed. Love you.
xoxo Tiffany xoxo
He got online today. And I missed him, of course. I don't know whats going on with that anymore. I can't be with someone I don't see. I think I may end it, just until we see each other. I care for him, a whole lot. More than I've cared about anyone like that before, but I can't "be with him" if I don't see him. It's too hard.
Audra and I went out tonight. I needed that. We talked about the most random stuff...lol. I told her some things that I wouldn't just tell anybody. It was great. I love her to death... :)
My Ashley came and saw me at work. I was sittin in my car for break and she and Jon pulled up. haha I love those two. They are SO freakin cute together. I hate it when they fight, I really do. I wish they'd just accept the fact that they think other people are hot, accept the fact that they probably don't have a chance with those people, and go on. haha Anyways, yeah, Ash looked totally cute in her skirt and polo. I love her!
I think that's all I have to write about. I'm tired..and I'm going into work tomorrow, so I better get to bed. Love you.
xoxo Tiffany xoxo