*TeArS iN hEaVeN*

[livin_your_lies]

I'm trying to avoid the fact that I need to get ready to go to the funeral home. Today's the showing and mom wants me to go with her. Honestly, I'd like to go alone. It's so weird..when something like this happens, you'd think, being the person I am, I'd want to be with people, but all I want to do is be ALONE. I don't think my mom understands that. Or anyone for that matter. But it'll all be over soon. Tomorrow is the funeral..and it'll give me some form of closure. Not that I'll ever forget about him..I just want my mom to get out of this daze she's been in. I can't take it. It sounds like I'm being selfish..but Ricky wouldn't mom to be like this. He wouldn't like Aunt Rhonda to be the way she is either..but I definately don't blame her. No parent should have to bury their child. It's just not right. But for some reason God took him at this time in his life. Maybe we'll never know why. But He did. And if it's part of His plan, then it's right for all of us.

*sigh*

I better go wake everyone up.

xoxo Tiffany xoxo