Silence In a Empty House
so as the days got worst and worst with this fucking heat. So has my life. everyday, my father comes in as early in the morning and starts fighting with my sister crystal and I. The night of Whistle happened....
That morning my sister came from a party, for me noly to find out that someone stole all her money out of her purse, including my money for whistle. I stole Venom, who didnt seem to give two shits and spent the rest of the day pissed off at him. Finally my freind Marko and Rick ask me to hang out with them. so Rick shit faced on JD and comes pick up my depressed ass. While at the "party" at Marko's house. I was pissed and drinking with Rick. (I'm not much of a drinker.) But I couldnt help myself wit the Jack Daniel's. LOL So anyways, I was outside on the deck smoking a ciggrette, when some tells me my phone was ringing. i ran into grab it but they hung up before I could answer. i tried to call back the number 3 times, but their was only a busy signal. i knnew they were leaving a message. So as soon as i got the little "NEW HAVE A MESSAGE" thingy on my phone i went and listened to it. It was Venom .. my baby!
He said " I'm calling to tell you I love you. I havent seen russel yet. But they're carding at the door and I didnt bring mine. right there I started calling everyone to get a hold of him to come up to my house for the night. I called my house had my sister go through my phone book and get Russel's number hoping russel had not gone there yet. well russel informs me that he couldnt find Venom and just left. Right than I started freaking out. Trying to call everyone I knew that knew Venom or would be at the Rave. I was freaking out worried. I knew he was sitting there. And had no money or anything. I was talkig to Tox went, Tox said "if I hear from him I'll have him call you." than MY FUCKING PHONE DIED!!!!! I had heart failure, I threw my phone and began to cry and freak out. i walked into Marko's room where a few people were drinking and listening to music and asked to use Dave's phone. Than remebered my phone's died! I cant get any of numbers out of it! "FUCK!" i screammed and threw my phone into the floor as it shattered into 3 pieces and began to cry covering my face and running for the deck and sat down outside in the chair shortly after. Dave followed me and was asking ... are you okay? I was cryign to much to be able to talk... I was so worried about Venom and the last thing I wanted was him in center city alone with no money to get anywhere.
Marko noticed me upsetness and said ... hey... everyone's got leave. I'm takig Mel to find her boyfriend. Rick was pissed out in the living. So we left him a note and ran out the front door. i thanked marko over and over in the car and it said "its fine. I'd do this for any of my friends." i was sayign to dave and marko that we should park at the public storage on Delaware and spring garden and walk down to the club and look for him. But Dave thought it would be a good idea if we parked on 4 and callohill and walked down. So I said fine what ever marko wants to do. We walked dont i was asking every person I seen if they had seen him. Everyone had seen him put not for a few hours now. We walked around for 3 hours all over shampoo.. i had my friends that were inside looking around to see if just maybe he got in. No one had seen him and secretey guards told me that he hadnt gone it at all. :( ... just than after it had been 3 hours and he was still not to be found. I looked at Marko who I felt like hated me now. And I looked at the ground and said " I guess we should go now." As we were walking to the car I was trynig my hardest not to break down in tears again. On he way home i talk to Jason, Venom's roomate and he said If he had heard anything he'd let me know.
The rest of the night at home. i layed on the love seat in my bedroom with my phone in my hand waiting for him to call ... which he never did and wand up falling asleep there wit hte phone on my chest. Th next morning I was woken up by my cell phone ringing. i jumpped up and looked at it. it was Marie.. i talk to her and told her about Venom. who I havent to hear from. Than i called his house later to speak with Jason. Than Venom answered. I freaked out with exictment and went my first words were "WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU!?"
Go to Venom's myspace, to find out what happened that night.
i think what really hurts the must was that Venom seemed to not care that I was worried or looking for him. All he had to say was "I cant take care of myself. If i need your help... I'll call you and ask for it."
I dont even know what to think... lately it seems as if he doesnt even want to talk to me everytime i call he makes an excuss to get off the phone with me. Or something.
It true what Mest "it over" says ...
If you play than they will stay with you.
If you love them they will desive you.
When your honest ... they'll just lie to you.
But if you Lie to them ... they will believe you.
I really dont know what the fuck to do...
i fucknig hate Loving anyone anymore.
That morning my sister came from a party, for me noly to find out that someone stole all her money out of her purse, including my money for whistle. I stole Venom, who didnt seem to give two shits and spent the rest of the day pissed off at him. Finally my freind Marko and Rick ask me to hang out with them. so Rick shit faced on JD and comes pick up my depressed ass. While at the "party" at Marko's house. I was pissed and drinking with Rick. (I'm not much of a drinker.) But I couldnt help myself wit the Jack Daniel's. LOL So anyways, I was outside on the deck smoking a ciggrette, when some tells me my phone was ringing. i ran into grab it but they hung up before I could answer. i tried to call back the number 3 times, but their was only a busy signal. i knnew they were leaving a message. So as soon as i got the little "NEW HAVE A MESSAGE" thingy on my phone i went and listened to it. It was Venom .. my baby!
He said " I'm calling to tell you I love you. I havent seen russel yet. But they're carding at the door and I didnt bring mine. right there I started calling everyone to get a hold of him to come up to my house for the night. I called my house had my sister go through my phone book and get Russel's number hoping russel had not gone there yet. well russel informs me that he couldnt find Venom and just left. Right than I started freaking out. Trying to call everyone I knew that knew Venom or would be at the Rave. I was freaking out worried. I knew he was sitting there. And had no money or anything. I was talkig to Tox went, Tox said "if I hear from him I'll have him call you." than MY FUCKING PHONE DIED!!!!! I had heart failure, I threw my phone and began to cry and freak out. i walked into Marko's room where a few people were drinking and listening to music and asked to use Dave's phone. Than remebered my phone's died! I cant get any of numbers out of it! "FUCK!" i screammed and threw my phone into the floor as it shattered into 3 pieces and began to cry covering my face and running for the deck and sat down outside in the chair shortly after. Dave followed me and was asking ... are you okay? I was cryign to much to be able to talk... I was so worried about Venom and the last thing I wanted was him in center city alone with no money to get anywhere.
Marko noticed me upsetness and said ... hey... everyone's got leave. I'm takig Mel to find her boyfriend. Rick was pissed out in the living. So we left him a note and ran out the front door. i thanked marko over and over in the car and it said "its fine. I'd do this for any of my friends." i was sayign to dave and marko that we should park at the public storage on Delaware and spring garden and walk down to the club and look for him. But Dave thought it would be a good idea if we parked on 4 and callohill and walked down. So I said fine what ever marko wants to do. We walked dont i was asking every person I seen if they had seen him. Everyone had seen him put not for a few hours now. We walked around for 3 hours all over shampoo.. i had my friends that were inside looking around to see if just maybe he got in. No one had seen him and secretey guards told me that he hadnt gone it at all. :( ... just than after it had been 3 hours and he was still not to be found. I looked at Marko who I felt like hated me now. And I looked at the ground and said " I guess we should go now." As we were walking to the car I was trynig my hardest not to break down in tears again. On he way home i talk to Jason, Venom's roomate and he said If he had heard anything he'd let me know.
The rest of the night at home. i layed on the love seat in my bedroom with my phone in my hand waiting for him to call ... which he never did and wand up falling asleep there wit hte phone on my chest. Th next morning I was woken up by my cell phone ringing. i jumpped up and looked at it. it was Marie.. i talk to her and told her about Venom. who I havent to hear from. Than i called his house later to speak with Jason. Than Venom answered. I freaked out with exictment and went my first words were "WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU!?"
Go to Venom's myspace, to find out what happened that night.
i think what really hurts the must was that Venom seemed to not care that I was worried or looking for him. All he had to say was "I cant take care of myself. If i need your help... I'll call you and ask for it."
I dont even know what to think... lately it seems as if he doesnt even want to talk to me everytime i call he makes an excuss to get off the phone with me. Or something.
It true what Mest "it over" says ...
If you play than they will stay with you.
If you love them they will desive you.
When your honest ... they'll just lie to you.
But if you Lie to them ... they will believe you.
I really dont know what the fuck to do...
i fucknig hate Loving anyone anymore.