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AIIGHT! it's time to tell ya finally. lol no, NOT HERE WITHOUT YOU! oh geez, too good to turn it off. :(
ok, so uh, short version kinda cuz i don't remember it all, i don't even remember when it happened...
see, that's how bad it is now, i used to know exactly when everything happened and how long it's been since we've talked, and not being able to NOT call her. well, there are NONE of those things now. :'( and i'm hurting so bad.........
so.....she calls me at like 8pm while i'm cleaning and packing. i might have had plans with martin and them but it wasn't for sure for sure so yea....that's me, erasing all other plans to do the least bit with jaclyn cuz that's how important she was to me. but newayz,
so she calls, and we talk for a min. or two. she tells me that she slept in on her nap. she was supposed to wake up at like 6:30. i asked if she had something to do at 6:30. and she said she wanted to be able to go out. this was on some friday. i was like, "oh, and now it's too late?" she said well, they were leavin' around 6:30-7 i was like oh ok. then she told me to hold on. i held for a couple min. she came back and said sry as usual.
then.....she tells me, "well, i was gonna see if you wanted to hang out but, that was faith, and it turns out they couldn't go out 'til 10 anywayz. crazy how it all worked out huh?"
i was like, "uhhh, yea...wait, worked out? how?"
"cuz i slept in and she couldn't hang out 'til 10 anyways."
i was just like, "oh, right."
she tells me that she hasn't seen faith in a while so she told her that they'd hang out that day. and yet she "really misses me and wants to hang out" REALLY? COULDA FOOLED ME! *sigh* so then, she asks me to go with them to kokomos, some underaged club. she didn't even wanna go she was tellin' me, cuz some people were goin' that she didn't like. she KNEW there was no possible way for me to go. no seating in the car, she knew i wouldn't be able to fit. then i told her about martin and our probably plans. and she goes, "oh, well u guys drive up there and meet us there." HAHA, YEA RIGHT.
martin would never do that first of all, and no, i wouldn't do that to him. *sigh* so she knew i couldn't go and still asked me so that i had to be the one to blame for us not hanging out. wutever, watch, if i bring that up the next time we talk, (which is who knows when) she's totally say it was my fault.
so after that, i haven't called her in forever. i don't even know how long it's been. Jana told me that i shouldn't call her and just try to get passed it. and if she tries to call just say i'm busy and i'll call her back and not call her back. and maybe she'll get it that i'm hurt and maybe try to fix it. if not, then i'm cool, and if so, then she can try as hard as she wishes and maybe succeed. she called while i was working a couple nights ago at around 8, prolly right about when she got off work. she left a message just really plainly saying, "hey, just callin' to see wut's up. k, talk to you later, bye."
that's it....i haven't called her back. I HAVE NEVER DONE THAT. i mean, first of all, not calling her this long, but not answering her call and THEN not calling her BACK!! she has GOT to know i'm hurting like a BITCH! now, this is just me but, if i knew a good friend of mine was hurting, i'd be calling and really trying to see them so i could see what was wrong and wut i could do. ya know? how 'bout u megs? wut would u be doing? *sigh*
*sigh* so now, i'm gettin' kinda worried, cuz how she's all depressed, and.....i dunno, i want her to stay smart about things. i don't want her to just let herself go and just start drinking way too much or smoking way too much, sleep around with guys she doesn't really want to, start hurting herself in more ways than one.....*sigh* so.....i'll prolly call her sometime soon just to see if she's alright. u think i should? please lemme know. a simple yes or no would suffice ;)
so nothing is good right now. no car, took my 3rd car back. grrrr trying to find a place to move to. by the 1st of may, still haven't found anything. work sux, no money......no jaclyn :'( i gotta go, ttyl
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ok, so uh, short version kinda cuz i don't remember it all, i don't even remember when it happened...
see, that's how bad it is now, i used to know exactly when everything happened and how long it's been since we've talked, and not being able to NOT call her. well, there are NONE of those things now. :'( and i'm hurting so bad.........
so.....she calls me at like 8pm while i'm cleaning and packing. i might have had plans with martin and them but it wasn't for sure for sure so yea....that's me, erasing all other plans to do the least bit with jaclyn cuz that's how important she was to me. but newayz,
so she calls, and we talk for a min. or two. she tells me that she slept in on her nap. she was supposed to wake up at like 6:30. i asked if she had something to do at 6:30. and she said she wanted to be able to go out. this was on some friday. i was like, "oh, and now it's too late?" she said well, they were leavin' around 6:30-7 i was like oh ok. then she told me to hold on. i held for a couple min. she came back and said sry as usual.
then.....she tells me, "well, i was gonna see if you wanted to hang out but, that was faith, and it turns out they couldn't go out 'til 10 anywayz. crazy how it all worked out huh?"
i was like, "uhhh, yea...wait, worked out? how?"
"cuz i slept in and she couldn't hang out 'til 10 anyways."
i was just like, "oh, right."
she tells me that she hasn't seen faith in a while so she told her that they'd hang out that day. and yet she "really misses me and wants to hang out" REALLY? COULDA FOOLED ME! *sigh* so then, she asks me to go with them to kokomos, some underaged club. she didn't even wanna go she was tellin' me, cuz some people were goin' that she didn't like. she KNEW there was no possible way for me to go. no seating in the car, she knew i wouldn't be able to fit. then i told her about martin and our probably plans. and she goes, "oh, well u guys drive up there and meet us there." HAHA, YEA RIGHT.
martin would never do that first of all, and no, i wouldn't do that to him. *sigh* so she knew i couldn't go and still asked me so that i had to be the one to blame for us not hanging out. wutever, watch, if i bring that up the next time we talk, (which is who knows when) she's totally say it was my fault.
so after that, i haven't called her in forever. i don't even know how long it's been. Jana told me that i shouldn't call her and just try to get passed it. and if she tries to call just say i'm busy and i'll call her back and not call her back. and maybe she'll get it that i'm hurt and maybe try to fix it. if not, then i'm cool, and if so, then she can try as hard as she wishes and maybe succeed. she called while i was working a couple nights ago at around 8, prolly right about when she got off work. she left a message just really plainly saying, "hey, just callin' to see wut's up. k, talk to you later, bye."
that's it....i haven't called her back. I HAVE NEVER DONE THAT. i mean, first of all, not calling her this long, but not answering her call and THEN not calling her BACK!! she has GOT to know i'm hurting like a BITCH! now, this is just me but, if i knew a good friend of mine was hurting, i'd be calling and really trying to see them so i could see what was wrong and wut i could do. ya know? how 'bout u megs? wut would u be doing? *sigh*
*sigh* so now, i'm gettin' kinda worried, cuz how she's all depressed, and.....i dunno, i want her to stay smart about things. i don't want her to just let herself go and just start drinking way too much or smoking way too much, sleep around with guys she doesn't really want to, start hurting herself in more ways than one.....*sigh* so.....i'll prolly call her sometime soon just to see if she's alright. u think i should? please lemme know. a simple yes or no would suffice ;)
so nothing is good right now. no car, took my 3rd car back. grrrr trying to find a place to move to. by the 1st of may, still haven't found anything. work sux, no money......no jaclyn :'( i gotta go, ttyl
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