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mmmmm . . . .
i hate feeling down, it's such a drag.
just when things are working out and going good, for some old reason something seems to upset you....
something that is totally in my own control.
so why do i let it bother me?
i guess because , well actually i don't know. sometimes you just have to allow yourself to be upset, ya know.
i don't even know what i feel? its frustrating.., it's like im happy for a certain reason but im also sad because of another reason. it's like you can't win.......ever.
and i don't know why i allow things to stick with me, why can't i just forget about things.
i know.., it's probably because i am an insecure person . ... now (i feel) more than ever.
and i don't even know why im saying this because it only makes me that much more vunerable........to the judgement of others.., and it's sad that i care so much for the approval of others.
"these words are my diary screaming out loud"
i miss the part of me that didn't care.., but that part of me has been gone for awhile......i just have to get it back...
it's called confidence...lol.
i hate this... the process, having to "deal with it" "face it"
why do we get so attached to things that are so superficial, that only matter to us, and not to anyone else......?
urgh.
i hate feeling this way.
i just need to stay positive and remember what is really important and what really matters.........
im sure ill wake up tomo and be cheery..., (knock on wood- haha, with my luck)
it'll all be okay.
nite nite
<3 bish.