feel like being smart... ish
See-jay you inspired me to write a smart sounding post, coz your last one sounded smart, so im going to sound smart!!!
(To everybody else, yes I will be whinging! :D )
You know what I am truely sick of? Contradicting people. The people who are like "Loz i'm here for you if you need me!" But then never follow it through. Ever. The other night i messaged my friend and asked him to come and rescue me. There was nothing bad happening at home, no one was really pissing me off, but I was just in that state of mind where I would have thought about all that has happened and changed over the past few months that i would have gotten depressed all over again, and quite frankly I needed rescueing. I didn't get a reply at all. I ended up crying myself to sleep and waking up the next day after a string of nightmares. I had 4 nightmares that night thats how much i stressed myself out. I know i mite sound like a sook or whatever, but I need to sook. I need to bitch. I need to cry - But mostly, I need people to hear me. So far this is the only way that people really pay attention. All those people that know me, know that I'm not an angry person usually. Yeah ok i get the shits, but its not like week after week, day after day, minute after minute. And ok i do spit the dummy a lot (hence my year 10 award!) But I have never felt so hostile about life. Ever. I have never thought "i dont want to wake up today" so often in my life. I have never truely hated people like i do these days. And i have definately never cried myself to sleep so often.
All I'm asking is for someone to say "Loz i'm here if you need me" and mean it. And i mean truely down in the bottom of theirs hearts mean it. Don't say you'll be there for me, then just start talking about someone else.
Shout outs:
*Danie* Hello babe! How are you? YAY YOU GOT YOUR L'S!! WAHOOOO!! :D Thats so exciting. Love you Button.
*See-jay* Hello snookie! Hows you? Bah i've known you a week and I've never known anyone who is quite so much like me! I love it!! :D
*Aaron* Hello my beautiful ballet down the stairs lover Penbi! (whoa thats been a while!)
*Natalie* Hello dear (sorry if i spelt your name wrong) are you still at TAFE?
Thats about it! If i have left you out, my bad!
(To everybody else, yes I will be whinging! :D )
You know what I am truely sick of? Contradicting people. The people who are like "Loz i'm here for you if you need me!" But then never follow it through. Ever. The other night i messaged my friend and asked him to come and rescue me. There was nothing bad happening at home, no one was really pissing me off, but I was just in that state of mind where I would have thought about all that has happened and changed over the past few months that i would have gotten depressed all over again, and quite frankly I needed rescueing. I didn't get a reply at all. I ended up crying myself to sleep and waking up the next day after a string of nightmares. I had 4 nightmares that night thats how much i stressed myself out. I know i mite sound like a sook or whatever, but I need to sook. I need to bitch. I need to cry - But mostly, I need people to hear me. So far this is the only way that people really pay attention. All those people that know me, know that I'm not an angry person usually. Yeah ok i get the shits, but its not like week after week, day after day, minute after minute. And ok i do spit the dummy a lot (hence my year 10 award!) But I have never felt so hostile about life. Ever. I have never thought "i dont want to wake up today" so often in my life. I have never truely hated people like i do these days. And i have definately never cried myself to sleep so often.
All I'm asking is for someone to say "Loz i'm here if you need me" and mean it. And i mean truely down in the bottom of theirs hearts mean it. Don't say you'll be there for me, then just start talking about someone else.
Shout outs:
*Danie* Hello babe! How are you? YAY YOU GOT YOUR L'S!! WAHOOOO!! :D Thats so exciting. Love you Button.
*See-jay* Hello snookie! Hows you? Bah i've known you a week and I've never known anyone who is quite so much like me! I love it!! :D
*Aaron* Hello my beautiful ballet down the stairs lover Penbi! (whoa thats been a while!)
*Natalie* Hello dear (sorry if i spelt your name wrong) are you still at TAFE?
Thats about it! If i have left you out, my bad!