to you, even though you wont read it
to my dearest darling dork of a better half. despite the lack of actual doing something tonight, i still dont think ive enjoyed myself more since summer began. you are without a doubt my drug, the thing i need most all day every day. Our stupid jokes, lame one-liners, and plain ol' idiotic no-reasons-at-all are the best in my life. i've never felt comfortable enough to just lay down and chill, without doing anything. All that nothing was everything to me, and I'm glad I have that experience at least once. Even though I fail at the "guess the song/artist/anything" game...well...i'm not afraid to fail with you. you piss me off more than i can count and i hate you with more intensity than i've felt for a long time, but i can't deny that i don't love you triple times all of that. even though you dont care to know the deeper truth why...well...i forget that around you. and sometimes, that's what i need most. i loved getting to hang out with you alone and just chillin together. it was nice, comfortable, and most of all...us. i love that nothing has changed between us since our time at dennys where the legendary ring toss with an onion went down--if anything, we are ten times closer. despite everything that happened, the drama and fights and disagreements...we are what we remain to be. tonight was no exception...in your tv room (padres in hi-def with your favourite captain obvious Tony Gwynn as commentator) being dumb (yeah yeah i still have to effing catcall for you) or munching on food (a hurdle?! thats it?...and the straw wrapper, made into the pink ribbon jesus fish and a face) whilst talking stupidly (veni vidi vici!!! and a red ball in pong would TOO be awesome, you jackass) to being scared in your Big Room while you tortured Cocoa and made her do the Chewbacca to your car where you are so damn unattractive chewing the fries or calling me a slutty bitch every half second to your room with me lying on the bed and you playing song after song having me guess them or acting drunk while trying to remember names (SHELDON!)...well...it was all what i needed. i love you, with more than my heart can handle. i dont know what im going to do next year without you. i understand we may grow apart, and i understand that we will. but for now...i love you. more than anyone in the world. you are the better half to the A&D love, despite your rather sucky taste in music. I look forward to April 28, 2049 when you will buy New Zealand and turn it to France--book a city for me, because i will for definitely be there with you =)