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You know the one thing I absolutely hate about myself, like straight up would give my arm and leg to change it?
With all but save a handfull of people, I can never say what I really want to say, or what on my mind. If that makes sense. It kills me in a way because I am the type of person that likes to express myself, but I honestly never do. And they wonder why I would rather sit and smoke in my room. I would rather stay quiet around people because I think before I speak.
So instead of talking I think about something negative that might/will happen, and stay quiet. Or when I do say something its out of place and stupid. Yeah I think about the positvie outcomes too, but the negative always outweigh them.
Hmm, that was just on my mind.
With all but save a handfull of people, I can never say what I really want to say, or what on my mind. If that makes sense. It kills me in a way because I am the type of person that likes to express myself, but I honestly never do. And they wonder why I would rather sit and smoke in my room. I would rather stay quiet around people because I think before I speak.
So instead of talking I think about something negative that might/will happen, and stay quiet. Or when I do say something its out of place and stupid. Yeah I think about the positvie outcomes too, but the negative always outweigh them.
Hmm, that was just on my mind.