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So I've been freaking out today... And Its over anything. And all I need to do is cry and go take a nap. But I just found out that I have a lab report due tomorrow that I forgot about, and about 150 pages of reading to do, so no nap for tonight. I pretty much suck.
Today was RT day. And it sucked miserably. My RT ignores me. They create a circle that I'm obviously not a part of and talk and leave me on the outside. Its really sad when your RT ignores you because there supposed to be there with you for 4 years. But I barely talk to any of them, so I can't exactly trust them. And we were with two other RT's today and I still sat by myself. So I was really sad but then Alex came to school for me so I was happy and I hung out with him for the rest of the day. And I finally had someone. Your the only one I have now. Better get used to it.
I don't want any of the seniors to leave this year. I don't want this year to ever, ever end. They leave and I'm left alone. No thats not true. I have one of my best friends still but it won't be the same, nothing will be the same. And I'll most likely be depressed. Next year is not going to be a happy year. And I dont know why I'm freaking out about this so early. I need to calm down.
Maybe my lab report will stop my brain for a little while....
I'm sorry for this whole entry.