Didnt know where else to write
i was sitting here...knowing I should study for my Calc and Chem exams but not, just thinking about nothing particular. Thoughts wandering aimlessly when i thought about this....I lead a life once...one I loved full of people I love, with places I know, things I wanted and no particular place to go at all. In a penstroke and a an "I do" I traded it all, I traded it all for a future, for an education, for people I dont love, for places I dont know, fo things i thought i wanted, and all with an ever growing sense of urgency to go and a place to go. Now I look back and I wonder what was so bad about not having anywhere to go. We live in the this life with the fear of change but the fear also of being left behind. Sometimes staying behind aint so bad at all....I do not believe that all has been bad since my choice was made, nor do I say i regret the life I chose but I wonder now why I couldnt have had both, and why if I did indeed love it so much why was I so eager to give it up....in the light of my own words "sacrafice, we all make it sooner or later, I chose sooner rather than later!" is where i find its absence to only darkness and emptiness.