Demily fic... Forbidden friut, forbidden love part 3 the last one:)
Here is the last part of this ff. Enjoy:)
3.
From actors' diary...
We thought before, we know what love is. Until we experienced it. Emotional bond was born between two of us, we had common interests, so we couldn't stop talking. When one was empty, next one came in and next, and next. There was no monotony, there was always something going on. Every new day brought new, exciting stuff. We didn't have any secrets. We knew each other's pros and cons,, we shared ups and downs. We finally saw difference between liking and love! But for us it is forbidden. It will cause too much pain. We made joint decision about finishing it and it wasn't easy.
Boundless love, the only boundary was death... Prefect, flawless love... With only one fly in the ointment. It's prohibited...
We're sitting now drinking red wine. We shot 100th episode yesterday, everything went fine. Today we had little party because of that. Everybody, well almost, appeared. Eloquent speeches, acknowledgements and this barely seen kiss, on the photo it looks as it was on the cheek, but it was a soft peck of lips missed by paparazzi. Magical, whispered 'I love you' was something our, real, but forbidden... Convicted on failure... We finally saw difference between liking and love! But for us it is forbidden. It will cause too much pain.
Last month we had some arguments whether we break the chains, are together and hurt everybody around us, finishing our own torments, venting emotions and giving chance to our love or do we put an end to it. Finally Emily decided - we cut.
We sacrificed our happiness for other... I wasn't clearly sure, but I saw her suffering. I couldn't bear that. I couldn't hurt my love...
We gave up without fighting. We decided, it wasn't easy. It's our last joint evening...
It seemed to us we know what love is. But now we experienced it.
When everything went down, SO after 3am we secretly met in room where few hours before we had celebrated success. Not only crew, but also our private one. If it wasn't for the show we wouldn't meet and feel affection honest and clear as a tear. We don't even know how it happened. Glasses of champagne were almost vanishing. We called back all moments spent on plan and beyond it. We felt that something SO desired will happen, but we will regret it. It came to our minds, but... It's worth it.
Passion, desire were stronger than ethics...
At one moment we looked into each other's eyes, we saw there chemistry, passion, sultriness. As we had never seen before. It was a blink of an eye, when we were on the floor in each other's clasp. Fingers were wandering on bodies, looking for explosions and giving them to thirsty souls.
Kisses gave to burning body causes creeps and shiver of desire. There was nothing but us and our moment of truth. We delayed way too long, but now it was right time. It was our farewell... Words of love whispered between kisses, tears of happiness mixed with sad ones... Two elements connected in dance, passionate dance of lovers, craving for closeness that they have only for a moment...
Our bodies weaved in crazy grip, connected in unfulfilled lust. Moves were very gentle, full of tenderness, passion and love. We swayed in one direction, giving each other endless delight. We kissed with passion and every kiss was entry to something unavoidable. He was turned on enough, so was she. He looked into her eyes once again, where he saw consent to next step.
- David - I whispered between kisses, barely breathing.
- I love you Emily- I said after a moment, looking into her blue eyes. - I love you. - I repeated. - Neither people nor anything else can change it, remember. Don't listen to other people if they told you it's not true. This is ours and only ours.
- I love you. - I whispered, happy. - Nobody can take away what is between us. And now, make love with me. Just love me. - I murmured and ecstasy took over me.
I complied with her request. I started moving slowly, going deeper and deeper with every move. It was so gentle, but fulfilling at the same time. Emily bit her lip, and through her body was going another spasm of rapture. Every next bringing together led us to orgasm we never had. Possessed by heat of our bodies, passion, desire, they slowly lost contact with reality.
There were only us... Myself and she... It was night full of passion, night that vented hidden lusts. You might think it was only 'rapid sex', having nothing in common with love. You're wrong. It was the miracle of love that I was talking about in series. When two become one. We were one. For a moment, but we were.
It was the most beautiful thing that we have ever experienced.
Do we regret?
Never ever! It won't happen again. We decided to break up, but night of lovers will stay in my mind forever. Lovers who are not meant to be happy.
Always in my mind...
Fate is cruel. We are in relationships and despite we're happy, it shouldn't be this way...
But we have to keep on living...
If I turned back the time, we would do something totally different. We would be happy, together. Nobody would suffer. Now we can't do anything. Too little courage, too much pain.
And despite there is not only chemistry, desire, trust and love between us, this affection is forbidden. We have to sacrifice, give it up, because it's too expensive. We will hurt lots of people and we don't want that. We have each other, not exactly in the way we would like to, but we are grateful to God he crossed our paths. Friendship is good, even if it's not enough. We were late. There is nothing for us. We have great memories and nobody can wipe them out. They are only ours, hidden somewhere deep inside our hearts...