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hmm..I haven't been outside of my house in 3 days. Except for the Jamba run on Monday, it would have been 4 days. Wow, I need to get out. I'm going crazy. It felt like December today though. I was freezing!! Eek, it's December! w00t! lol. I think it might be my favorite month...but then I've always liked January for some reason, but I don't know why.
All I did almost all day was work on the paper for Andrae's class. 3 pages single spaced. Topic: The check list of Christianity according to 1 John. And considering he only gave us like 6 clearly defined check points, I feel like I made a lot of it up. Or just talked in circles more. But yeah, other than watching boy meets world, playing around on the piano, and watching a taping of Dawson's Creek, that's all I did. It feels good to get it done though.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I'm in a weird mood. I have been too. Blah, I have all the words in my head for waht it's about, I just can't get them out. Don't know how to say them I guess... But I thought my junior year would be a lot different. A lot more of Katie, more activity, and more God time. I thought school was gonna be an awesome year. But so far I was wrong on all of that. My life is in between a mess and too structured. I haven't been spontaneous in a long time. And usually I am. A lot. I remember my dad getting so mad over it, cause he hates spontanuity. But that was me, or at least was. Sometimes I wonder where I went. Does it seem like I've changed to anyone else? I almost feel like I grew dark and dim...I dunno. There's people I could blame for it, but is it really their fault? Maybe I've just grown up and faced reality. Maybe not yet.
...I've been here before, and I made the mistake then. I just don't want to make it now...
I want to hang out with Katie again.
I wanna hang out with Allison too.
I want to feel more social than I am.
I want to be closer with Jose than I am. I'm tired of letting that friendship almost go out before realizing I'm about to lose him.
I want to start going to the gym more again.
I wanna go surfing.
I wish there were more times in the day
I wish I were more naive like I used to be.
I wish things were as they used to be.
Guys, let's make the rest of this year a good one, ok? I know we've all been saying it sucks so far, so why not make it better? Let's all plan something and start hanging out more, outside of school and what not....
All I did almost all day was work on the paper for Andrae's class. 3 pages single spaced. Topic: The check list of Christianity according to 1 John. And considering he only gave us like 6 clearly defined check points, I feel like I made a lot of it up. Or just talked in circles more. But yeah, other than watching boy meets world, playing around on the piano, and watching a taping of Dawson's Creek, that's all I did. It feels good to get it done though.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I'm in a weird mood. I have been too. Blah, I have all the words in my head for waht it's about, I just can't get them out. Don't know how to say them I guess... But I thought my junior year would be a lot different. A lot more of Katie, more activity, and more God time. I thought school was gonna be an awesome year. But so far I was wrong on all of that. My life is in between a mess and too structured. I haven't been spontaneous in a long time. And usually I am. A lot. I remember my dad getting so mad over it, cause he hates spontanuity. But that was me, or at least was. Sometimes I wonder where I went. Does it seem like I've changed to anyone else? I almost feel like I grew dark and dim...I dunno. There's people I could blame for it, but is it really their fault? Maybe I've just grown up and faced reality. Maybe not yet.
...I've been here before, and I made the mistake then. I just don't want to make it now...
I want to hang out with Katie again.
I wanna hang out with Allison too.
I want to feel more social than I am.
I want to be closer with Jose than I am. I'm tired of letting that friendship almost go out before realizing I'm about to lose him.
I want to start going to the gym more again.
I wanna go surfing.
I wish there were more times in the day
I wish I were more naive like I used to be.
I wish things were as they used to be.
Guys, let's make the rest of this year a good one, ok? I know we've all been saying it sucks so far, so why not make it better? Let's all plan something and start hanging out more, outside of school and what not....