GOOD TIMES
last night was AWESOME!
.i.♥.gay.boys.
seriously i had so much fun! i was everyones bitch! and i could dance however and with whoever i wanted and they didnt want to get in my pants. not that guys usually do but if you have tits and legs you're a target these days.
i met some absoloutely beautiful people.
the most beautiful of course were my boys james and gareth.
i love you two so much and im sorry that things were kind of sad towards the end there but the bond between you too is amazing.
gareth you have such a kind heart and a lovely way with people and i admire it so much
james no one could have made me feel better the way you did last night, you're so reassuring and everything you said to me about what im going through couldnt have been more perfect. i appreciate your friendship more than you know.
bree i remember thinking on NUMEROUS occassions that you should have been there! james and i tried to call you! i love you sweety and i have to see you soon!
i think the highlight would have to have been when i was sandwiched between six gay boys, 2 at the front and back and one on either side. haha either that or my little cowgirl moment wearing stevens flanno and dancing to 'these boots are made for walking'
i cant believe i didnt find 'the beat' earlier! haha
on another note i temporarily freaked out this morning about gavin being away. . .
im well aware of how lovely and amazing he is but i had a small flashback to the guys who have cheated on me in the past and it was a scary thought knowing that anything could happen while he's away and i would never find out about it. . .
i know people say "a relationship is nothing without trust, you have to trust them"
but on the same time trust takes time to build and we've only been together a week so of course im going to be scared.
then just perfectly this morning he sent me a lovely message, i told him how i felt and he wrote back with exactly what i needed to hear.
the best thing about us so far is if either of us are feeling unsure of anything we promised to talk about it rather than pretending to be ok.
and he's so good at reassuring me.
ah. ok enough talk about him.
my foot just went numb im freaking out.
im going to do laps of my reception desk.
shit. i seriously cant feel it.
ok outies
xox