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my mom has been driving me crazy...
so, i've been working a lot lately...i went from working 12-18 hours a week to 25-32...instantly...basically, i just filled in for melissa while she was out for her hand. my mom has been getting lonely...she feels like we never talk anymore, which is true, but i can't really help that. i'm working all the time and when i'm not, i usually hang out with friends or run errands...i'm not gonna lie, i enjoy the freedom. it's only a recent thing that i'm able to get up and go when i want...and i love it. but anyway, my mom misses me. i understand it, but whenever i talk about work, she seems annoyed...like she's jealous of it or something. since i've been doing well at work, especially recently with the extra shifts, the managers were considering giving a weeknight shift...permanently. i was so excited! when i went into work on wednesday, rheanna asked me if wednesdays and thursdays were good, because i could have both those days. i couldn't believe it...i thought i was lucky to get one weeknight, but two! that's amazing! so when i got home, i told my mom...she gave a disapproving, annoyed sort of look and started to walk away...well, i had had enough. i told her i was really getting sick of her reactions to my work schedule. i told her i was upset about it and that i almost didn't tell her, because i knew she'd make that face...she just kind of shook it off and said she missed me, that i'm never there for dinner anymore. well, i understood that and i know that it's true, but i can't help it. so anyway, i had yesterday off. i didn't have any plans and i purposely didn't make any so that i would be home for my mom, though i was very tempted to. when my parents got home, my dad asked me if i wanted him to just pick up some subs and he and mom would go out for a bike ride...well, i told him i wanted all four of us to go out...even though i didn't want to...because i didn't stay home just to sit in my room watching tv. so, we went out and at dinner, i told my parents how i had purposely not made plans and how they kind of made me feel bad, because they really wanted to go for a bike ride (by the way, when i say "bike" i mean motorcycle, a harley in fact). then my dad said something i'll never forget. he said he didn't mind at all, because he'd rather be spending time with me than on his bike. now, my dad does not show emotion...he never says "i love you" or anything like that...and his motorcycle means a lot to him...so the fact that he said that really meant a lot, but i still felt bad...because i was wishing i was with friends instead of with my family. i guess i really am growing up.
so, i've been working a lot lately...i went from working 12-18 hours a week to 25-32...instantly...basically, i just filled in for melissa while she was out for her hand. my mom has been getting lonely...she feels like we never talk anymore, which is true, but i can't really help that. i'm working all the time and when i'm not, i usually hang out with friends or run errands...i'm not gonna lie, i enjoy the freedom. it's only a recent thing that i'm able to get up and go when i want...and i love it. but anyway, my mom misses me. i understand it, but whenever i talk about work, she seems annoyed...like she's jealous of it or something. since i've been doing well at work, especially recently with the extra shifts, the managers were considering giving a weeknight shift...permanently. i was so excited! when i went into work on wednesday, rheanna asked me if wednesdays and thursdays were good, because i could have both those days. i couldn't believe it...i thought i was lucky to get one weeknight, but two! that's amazing! so when i got home, i told my mom...she gave a disapproving, annoyed sort of look and started to walk away...well, i had had enough. i told her i was really getting sick of her reactions to my work schedule. i told her i was upset about it and that i almost didn't tell her, because i knew she'd make that face...she just kind of shook it off and said she missed me, that i'm never there for dinner anymore. well, i understood that and i know that it's true, but i can't help it. so anyway, i had yesterday off. i didn't have any plans and i purposely didn't make any so that i would be home for my mom, though i was very tempted to. when my parents got home, my dad asked me if i wanted him to just pick up some subs and he and mom would go out for a bike ride...well, i told him i wanted all four of us to go out...even though i didn't want to...because i didn't stay home just to sit in my room watching tv. so, we went out and at dinner, i told my parents how i had purposely not made plans and how they kind of made me feel bad, because they really wanted to go for a bike ride (by the way, when i say "bike" i mean motorcycle, a harley in fact). then my dad said something i'll never forget. he said he didn't mind at all, because he'd rather be spending time with me than on his bike. now, my dad does not show emotion...he never says "i love you" or anything like that...and his motorcycle means a lot to him...so the fact that he said that really meant a lot, but i still felt bad...because i was wishing i was with friends instead of with my family. i guess i really am growing up.