but the regrets are killing me...
I'm still alive!
I think I've let the world get to me a bit since starting back at uni. Everything seems like a bit of a struggle day to day but then I have days where I just grab it by the scruff of the neck and try and make some sort of headway...like today I think. Had a bit of a rubbish day yesterday and went back a bunch of steps that I'd made in the last couple of weeks but rather than spiral I'm gonna step up. Word!
So by way of an update, here's another list. I like lists.
Totally posi things that have happened/are happening.
+ Going to Iceland. Seriously the most amazing thing you can imagine, and Adam and Phil were totally the two most people to go with. Turned out to be some sort of meeting of power ballads-wild adventures-fine food minds and I loved every single minute. Even nearly dying. (Sort of.)
+ Meeting a completely beautiful, intelligent, patient(ish) man to look after me. I think I completely frustrate him, and I know at times he completely frustrates me but it's nearly been five months and he still rolls over and holds me as soon as he wakes up in the morning <3
+ Getting a job at Lush. It's brilliant, literally brilliant. I couldn't be more enthusiastic about working. ethicalxshoppersxfoxlyfe !!!!!!
+ Getting a sweet-as tattoo by Sol at MVL Tattoos in Leeds (www.mvltattoos.com). I look like a very dainty sailor!
+ Planting a vegetable garden! Nothing much yet, and probably won't work out cos it's in a bad location but still makes me feel so posi.
+ Seeing the Decemberists, and going to see Built to Spill in May!!
Totally balls things.
- Failing at uni. Seeing everything I've worked so hard for while I've been here go down the pan because I'm falling apart. Winning now is a total uphill struggle, that I did not sign up for : (
- Being broke. That's my fault. But still a massive hassle.
- Depression and related sickness...doesn't really need much explaining. I have not been well : ( Hopefully on the mend though.
So I'm really sorry for neglecting anyone again - particularly you Shelmo, it's not that I don't think about you - but yeah see above for vague explainations of my eternal uselessness.
Tonight is a massive pain cos after a drought of I don't know how long in Leeds gigs, there are three tonight that I'd love to go to. I think everyone is off to Richmond Fontaine which normally I would jump at, but it's expensive and I've seen them before... Which leaves PW Long or Logh and I think I'm gonna plump for Logh. I don't really know anyone going to either, but the supports are much better for that and I just fancy a quiet night. Swedish ambient-melodies please.
I still read my friends page every day but if I don't post anything, I'm just busy/useless. Please don't forget about me!!
Inabit xo xo
I think I've let the world get to me a bit since starting back at uni. Everything seems like a bit of a struggle day to day but then I have days where I just grab it by the scruff of the neck and try and make some sort of headway...like today I think. Had a bit of a rubbish day yesterday and went back a bunch of steps that I'd made in the last couple of weeks but rather than spiral I'm gonna step up. Word!
So by way of an update, here's another list. I like lists.
Totally posi things that have happened/are happening.
+ Going to Iceland. Seriously the most amazing thing you can imagine, and Adam and Phil were totally the two most people to go with. Turned out to be some sort of meeting of power ballads-wild adventures-fine food minds and I loved every single minute. Even nearly dying. (Sort of.)
+ Meeting a completely beautiful, intelligent, patient(ish) man to look after me. I think I completely frustrate him, and I know at times he completely frustrates me but it's nearly been five months and he still rolls over and holds me as soon as he wakes up in the morning <3
+ Getting a job at Lush. It's brilliant, literally brilliant. I couldn't be more enthusiastic about working. ethicalxshoppersxfoxlyfe !!!!!!
+ Getting a sweet-as tattoo by Sol at MVL Tattoos in Leeds (www.mvltattoos.com). I look like a very dainty sailor!
+ Planting a vegetable garden! Nothing much yet, and probably won't work out cos it's in a bad location but still makes me feel so posi.
+ Seeing the Decemberists, and going to see Built to Spill in May!!
Totally balls things.
- Failing at uni. Seeing everything I've worked so hard for while I've been here go down the pan because I'm falling apart. Winning now is a total uphill struggle, that I did not sign up for : (
- Being broke. That's my fault. But still a massive hassle.
- Depression and related sickness...doesn't really need much explaining. I have not been well : ( Hopefully on the mend though.
So I'm really sorry for neglecting anyone again - particularly you Shelmo, it's not that I don't think about you - but yeah see above for vague explainations of my eternal uselessness.
Tonight is a massive pain cos after a drought of I don't know how long in Leeds gigs, there are three tonight that I'd love to go to. I think everyone is off to Richmond Fontaine which normally I would jump at, but it's expensive and I've seen them before... Which leaves PW Long or Logh and I think I'm gonna plump for Logh. I don't really know anyone going to either, but the supports are much better for that and I just fancy a quiet night. Swedish ambient-melodies please.
I still read my friends page every day but if I don't post anything, I'm just busy/useless. Please don't forget about me!!
Inabit xo xo