finally time for an update
geez everything is so insane! all this drama isnt worth my time. its so stupid! alba doesnt like me so solana doesnt like me and i still wanna be friends with solana and i dont know what i did to alba and i also want to be friends with nichole but nichole doesnt want to be my friend if im friends with solana and jason doesnt like me caryssa or lizette because anthony doesnt like him and jason wont talk to me unless i stop being friends with lizette and im just so very confused right now and nothing is going right and i had a band concert on tuesday and i did really bad then lizette was like "drew your rediculeous you cant play the flute worth crap why are you even in band" and it hurt really bad because i just havent really had the time to practice it lately because all day every day im at school then im swimming then the next day im at school then im swimming every single day im swimmin except for sunday then i finally get to take somewhat of a break but somewhat still isnt very much which sucks because i dont get the time to sleep and i dont get the time to do anything so then my weekend is pretty much gone because all the homework that i couldnt do over the week i have to do on sunday because thats the only day that i have time to do anything and im really really sick right now and im losing my voice and i cant talk and i have a stress rash on my side and everything is just making me insane and semester is almost over so i have to do as much as i can to make sure that my grades are up and everything is ok and peachy perfect which i highly doubt anything will be because everything sucks so bad right now i dont know what to do, i am so looking forward to christmas break you have no idea and i am so tired of my mom always always always nagging me telling me that i dont love her and that i dont care about her and all this other crap and calling me stupid and telling me im grounded even though i dont do anything in the first place. shes just looking for things to take her stupid anger out on and i guess im her only target or something i dont know. im going so insane right now everything is just not right. grr it sucks so bad!