Shoulda gone to free credit report dot com
I am extremely frustrated at the moment. I know it may seem stalkerish but I found out that Billy has a Myspace page again. So of course I tried to send him a message but he doesn't accept messages from people whom are not his friends, therefore I sent him a friends request which he rejected to no surprise. I want to be civil and friendly with him, and I want nothing more than for him to be a part of our childs life but he's acting so immature and it's really starting to piss me off. I'm done being hurt by the situation we were left in, and I'm willing to forgive and forget and just move on with life but he won't even talk to me. Therefore I'm going to be moving forward with the county to collect child support instead of working things out, honestly it's not about the money it's about the guy owning up and admitting that he fathered another child. I honestly don't know if his family even has a clue that I was pregnant and I want nothing more than to e-mail his sister but that just doesn't seem right. I don't want to get his family involved in our battle. I'm trying my best to be strong but how hard is it to be a man and admit that although it wasn't planned that you fathered a child. My biggest issue is that I feel guilty and awful about myself because my child's birth certificate is so bare, it has no information about the father because he won't sign the parentage forms or do the paternity test. I know my child will be happy and well taken care of even if his father isn't around but it's just sad that a man who's 27 years old can't be an adult and talk to me. GRRRRR......
In happier news Parker is doing well, we go in for our 2 month check up next week and get shots :-( I again have been talking to Dalton but of course I'm being overly cautious about spending time with him. He has no issues with me having a baby and he constantly wants to hang out but I'm afraid I'll become even more attracted to him and I've been telling him for the past 5 years that I'm not interested in a relationship with him. He's my ideal guy, has all the tattoos and piercings, is a firefighter, was in the Navy and is a BLAST to hang out with. We have fun when we go out for drinks or just sitting around watching cartoons. But lately I feel as if I'll be too clingy, so therefore I distance myself from him and appear stand-off-ish. I'm so confused by men that I don't think I'll ever have a relationship again. I know the old saying of if you stop looking for things they often come to you. Well I can't help but look and yearn for a stable relationship. I'm not saying I'm looking for THE ONE, I'm just looking for someone whom I enjoy spending time with. Someone who's willing to listen to me vent when I need to but then just brush it off without putting too much thought into it.
I have a stalker on Facebook, he's a nice guy but I'm really not interested in meeting men on the internet anymore. He's trying to be my friend on Myspace also but I'm going to refrain from adding him there. I did add a new friend on Myspace, he's a really cool guy and hopefully we shall be friends. I think he's attractive but honestly I'm not looking for a date I'm looking for people who are understanding that having a child means you can't go out as much as you'd like and finding a baby sitter isn't the easiest thing in the world to do.
So that was my vent/ramble for there month, hope everyone is having a happy new year
In happier news Parker is doing well, we go in for our 2 month check up next week and get shots :-( I again have been talking to Dalton but of course I'm being overly cautious about spending time with him. He has no issues with me having a baby and he constantly wants to hang out but I'm afraid I'll become even more attracted to him and I've been telling him for the past 5 years that I'm not interested in a relationship with him. He's my ideal guy, has all the tattoos and piercings, is a firefighter, was in the Navy and is a BLAST to hang out with. We have fun when we go out for drinks or just sitting around watching cartoons. But lately I feel as if I'll be too clingy, so therefore I distance myself from him and appear stand-off-ish. I'm so confused by men that I don't think I'll ever have a relationship again. I know the old saying of if you stop looking for things they often come to you. Well I can't help but look and yearn for a stable relationship. I'm not saying I'm looking for THE ONE, I'm just looking for someone whom I enjoy spending time with. Someone who's willing to listen to me vent when I need to but then just brush it off without putting too much thought into it.
I have a stalker on Facebook, he's a nice guy but I'm really not interested in meeting men on the internet anymore. He's trying to be my friend on Myspace also but I'm going to refrain from adding him there. I did add a new friend on Myspace, he's a really cool guy and hopefully we shall be friends. I think he's attractive but honestly I'm not looking for a date I'm looking for people who are understanding that having a child means you can't go out as much as you'd like and finding a baby sitter isn't the easiest thing in the world to do.
So that was my vent/ramble for there month, hope everyone is having a happy new year