I should sleep instead of fueling up on SOBE energy drinks
Not alot has been going on as of late. Alot of dirty diapers and feeding but other than that nothing. I have actually gone out a few times. A couple of weeks ago Mel, Jill and I went out and ended up hanging out with all different people from highschool. I got very buzzed off of two beers, and I went home early because Parker was colic and my sister was getting stressed out. Then I hung out with Mel, Bob, Bridget, Rick, Jimmy, Heather and her boyfriend last weekend. I suck at Rock Band more than I ever thought possible. I also text Dalton because I drove by three different fire stations on my way to Mel and Bob's. It was actually really nice to get back in contact with him. We are supposed to hang out soon. He didn't freak about me having a baby which sorta surprised me, but then again we've always just been friends so being that we've never tried to have a "romantic" relationship I supposed it doesn't really matter. I guess it's just really nice to have a male companion at this point and time. I obviously am not going to be looking for a realtionship because I just had a baby and 2007 was by far my worst year in dating. So I'm just trying to step back and enjoy life and do things for me and my baby and not worry about pleasing a man.
Actually I was really surprised because Dalton seemed worried about me, and how I was taking the entire situation after he found out a little bit about what happened. He actually seemed to care about how I was feeling. We are supposed to get together in the next couple of weeks and have dinner and see a movie and just hang. He's made it a point that it's not all about sex. He's always had a complex about our friendship because I've always assumed he looked at me as a booty call and he claims that I'm always telling him I'm not looking for a relationship. So I guess we'll just be friends, hang out and leave it at that for now.
I'm very proud of myself on the otherhand. It's been a couple of weeks and I never even thought about December 2nd. Which was Rob's and mine's anniversary. Of course during my entire pregnancy I thought of him often. He was my best friend while we were together and even though we both did alot of things that the other didn't like we were actually always there for eachother. I was upset about becoming a single mother, and feeling bad for myself because I got dumped and cheated on this year for the first time ever so of course I thought about my most comfortable relationship. But we're both older now, he's in a relationship and I hope he's happy. I figure he'll marry her someday and hopefully she won't cheat on him or hurt him the way I did. The old saying that you can't change your past has become more and more apparent over the past couple of years. Therefore my goal as per always is to move on with my life for once. I need to learn to function without a boyfriend. Of course I can't say that I don't crave physical relations, but I'm learning more and more everyday that "sex" although mostly satifying isn't something that should happen just because you're horny. I may end up bringing back my title of the makeout queen because I'm not gonna give it up so easily anymore. That may make me sound kinda like a slut but most of us must admit that we've made several poor choices when it comes to relations in our lives.
Enough rambeling,
FIN
Actually I was really surprised because Dalton seemed worried about me, and how I was taking the entire situation after he found out a little bit about what happened. He actually seemed to care about how I was feeling. We are supposed to get together in the next couple of weeks and have dinner and see a movie and just hang. He's made it a point that it's not all about sex. He's always had a complex about our friendship because I've always assumed he looked at me as a booty call and he claims that I'm always telling him I'm not looking for a relationship. So I guess we'll just be friends, hang out and leave it at that for now.
I'm very proud of myself on the otherhand. It's been a couple of weeks and I never even thought about December 2nd. Which was Rob's and mine's anniversary. Of course during my entire pregnancy I thought of him often. He was my best friend while we were together and even though we both did alot of things that the other didn't like we were actually always there for eachother. I was upset about becoming a single mother, and feeling bad for myself because I got dumped and cheated on this year for the first time ever so of course I thought about my most comfortable relationship. But we're both older now, he's in a relationship and I hope he's happy. I figure he'll marry her someday and hopefully she won't cheat on him or hurt him the way I did. The old saying that you can't change your past has become more and more apparent over the past couple of years. Therefore my goal as per always is to move on with my life for once. I need to learn to function without a boyfriend. Of course I can't say that I don't crave physical relations, but I'm learning more and more everyday that "sex" although mostly satifying isn't something that should happen just because you're horny. I may end up bringing back my title of the makeout queen because I'm not gonna give it up so easily anymore. That may make me sound kinda like a slut but most of us must admit that we've made several poor choices when it comes to relations in our lives.
Enough rambeling,
FIN