Yet Another Rant
So, I looked at Billy's mom's Myspace page just a few minutes ago and I'm almost in tears. I really liked her when I met her, she was a little old fashioned but she's one of those people who loves life, she lives for her family and her friends and I just thought she was beyond sweet, making an effort to welcome me into the family because Billy was ignoring me. It has been my plan for a while now, that if for reasons that I don't wish to discus Billy refuses to show up at the hospital when I give birth that I am going to e-mail her and let her know about the grand child and send her a picture. I'm not expecting anything I just believe the woman has a right to know. I want to give her an option to be a part of the childs life. I expect nothing from her besides love and acceptance which I know she would give more than willingly. My issue now is that her cancer has returned. She had been in remission for a thyroid cancer, but now it's a different type of cancer and she's been doing poorly as of late. She has faith that she will pull through and that things will work out in the end but I feel that if Billy doesn't show up, and I choose to tell her that it's going to put even more strain on her. That is the last thing I want to do. Honestly I want to do anything I can do to help her at the moment but yet how do I help someone I haven't talked to since March?
I got my ticket paid off so I'm happy about that. My weekend has been very uneventful. I declined going to a friends wedding because I didn't want to be surrounded by drunken idiots. I didn't make it to the fair this year either. I was supposed to go Thursday with Snette but I was feeling a bit under the weather and she never returned my call. I wish I had a job but the doctor says it's a little pointless at this time being that I'm already at 31 weeks and have less than 9 weeks left. Between doctors appointments almost weekly and getting ready for the baby trying to look for a job right now will just add extra stress I don't need. So now that Josie is going back to school my days are going to be even more uneventful and I'm afraid I will go crazy trying to find things to do. My aunt is a little upset with me because I want to make my own cake for my baby shower. I found a really cute design and nobody else has the time to work on a project like the cake I'd like. I'm honestly not looking forward to the shower but I know I will appreciate all my friends and family getting together to help me out. I'm crossing my fingers really hard and praying that for some amazing reason my baby decides to come around 36 weeks. My mom went around that time with her first child, my sister on the other hand was almost a week overdue when Josie came into the world. So I've established an eviction notice that will be served if the baby does not come out by Nov. 10th. That gives it almost a week after my due date to make it's apperance.
I got my ticket paid off so I'm happy about that. My weekend has been very uneventful. I declined going to a friends wedding because I didn't want to be surrounded by drunken idiots. I didn't make it to the fair this year either. I was supposed to go Thursday with Snette but I was feeling a bit under the weather and she never returned my call. I wish I had a job but the doctor says it's a little pointless at this time being that I'm already at 31 weeks and have less than 9 weeks left. Between doctors appointments almost weekly and getting ready for the baby trying to look for a job right now will just add extra stress I don't need. So now that Josie is going back to school my days are going to be even more uneventful and I'm afraid I will go crazy trying to find things to do. My aunt is a little upset with me because I want to make my own cake for my baby shower. I found a really cute design and nobody else has the time to work on a project like the cake I'd like. I'm honestly not looking forward to the shower but I know I will appreciate all my friends and family getting together to help me out. I'm crossing my fingers really hard and praying that for some amazing reason my baby decides to come around 36 weeks. My mom went around that time with her first child, my sister on the other hand was almost a week overdue when Josie came into the world. So I've established an eviction notice that will be served if the baby does not come out by Nov. 10th. That gives it almost a week after my due date to make it's apperance.