what a way to start the new year

[littlemoxy]

well i got a call from janel today from pittsburgh, my cat died. not to sound trite, but i figured it would happen sometime this year. she was old, she was angry, she hated living with harvey. i honestly felt bad sometimes when i saw how depressed she was. i figured either she would die this year or i would have to put her to sleep. i didn't know how i would handle putting her down, but i feel so bad leaving janel and amanda to take care of burying her. but as my mom said, i would have done the same for them. which is true.

so i'm kind of upset. obviously. i'm not going to get another pet until i'm in a more permanent living situation. but i WILL get a cat sometime in the future. i'm just happy she's not miserable anymore. i just wish i had been there. i mean it still would have happened. janel was checking on them every other day. and i know she did a great job. but i just wish i had been there to deal with it myself instead of dragging other people in to the situation.

grrrrrrrrrrrrr....
sadness.