things i have said tonight that i might not agree with in the morning but seem true enough now.
i will build myself a small case around my heart with gears and springs and it will chime once in a while to remind me to wind it up, but it will never open.
my friend said this quote: " '...And lightning may strike even yet. Don't be reconciled. Turn off your television sets,' Peterson said, 'cash in your life insurance, indulge in a mindless optimism. Visit girls at dusk. Play the guitar. How can you be alienated without having first been connected? Think back and remember how it was.' "
and i thought this:
the boys i would visit at dusk have pulled their shades and turned off their lights; they listen to me softly knock on the screen door, scraping my nails on the wire screen, hoping for a whisper in the dark and finding a dark room with closed eyes and tightly held breath.
wishing i had never come.
sometimes i feel like my purpose in life is to help other people keep their heads above water while i drown beneath them.
and yet while all my thoughts seem to despair of life and love and happiness and goodness in life, i don't feel all that bad. funny, that.
don't worry, i'm fine. just more introspective than is comfortable at the moment.
my friend said this quote: " '...And lightning may strike even yet. Don't be reconciled. Turn off your television sets,' Peterson said, 'cash in your life insurance, indulge in a mindless optimism. Visit girls at dusk. Play the guitar. How can you be alienated without having first been connected? Think back and remember how it was.' "
and i thought this:
the boys i would visit at dusk have pulled their shades and turned off their lights; they listen to me softly knock on the screen door, scraping my nails on the wire screen, hoping for a whisper in the dark and finding a dark room with closed eyes and tightly held breath.
wishing i had never come.
sometimes i feel like my purpose in life is to help other people keep their heads above water while i drown beneath them.
and yet while all my thoughts seem to despair of life and love and happiness and goodness in life, i don't feel all that bad. funny, that.
don't worry, i'm fine. just more introspective than is comfortable at the moment.