Day two
On my second day of deactivated Facebook, I find myself itching to check "the internet" with great frequency, but having almost nothing to even trick myself into checking.
I hope to fill this howling gulf with three things, in this order:
- music
- reading books
- video games
A fourth thing falls outside of that ranking, because it's very important to me but doesn't occupy the same impulse gratification area of my nervous system, and it's also going to be a lot harder to establish, but increased human contact is a priority.
Or I want it to be, but it's hard.
I'm worried that of the 1,069 "friends" I Just stopped Facebooking with, several are people with whom I primarily socialize that way, and am likely to now lose touch. That fear kept me plugged into something pretty unhealthy for a long time, so I'm trying not to give it too much influence... but I love people! I sure don't want to lose them.
So now it's phone, email, tumblr, twitter, sext and face to face. Hardly hermitude. But it feels pretty different from the bustle of Facebook.
Which I guess I wanted?
I hope to fill this howling gulf with three things, in this order:
- music
- reading books
- video games
A fourth thing falls outside of that ranking, because it's very important to me but doesn't occupy the same impulse gratification area of my nervous system, and it's also going to be a lot harder to establish, but increased human contact is a priority.
Or I want it to be, but it's hard.
I'm worried that of the 1,069 "friends" I Just stopped Facebooking with, several are people with whom I primarily socialize that way, and am likely to now lose touch. That fear kept me plugged into something pretty unhealthy for a long time, so I'm trying not to give it too much influence... but I love people! I sure don't want to lose them.
So now it's phone, email, tumblr, twitter, sext and face to face. Hardly hermitude. But it feels pretty different from the bustle of Facebook.
Which I guess I wanted?