Last Call
I am on the last hours of my last call night for Pediatrics. So far this experience has been good. I really like my resident, he is a cool guy, and I get to be on call with him, which made things much better for me.
For a little while I have been having a hard time deciding on how I feel about medicine. I wonder at times if this is the right place for me. It's a little discouraging when you feel dumb every day, you feel that you have no idea how to do anything right, and that people could care less if you were there. It's an awkward place to be. Peds has been better about making you feel a litte more at home, but you still fell like a wallflower. Yet today I felt a little ray of hope. Is it still scary? Yes. Am I still feeling stupid? Absolutely. Will I ever know it all? Hell no. But there are some quiet moments where I feel that things may be ok...
Either that or I make it that way for the sake of my sanity.
For a little while I have been having a hard time deciding on how I feel about medicine. I wonder at times if this is the right place for me. It's a little discouraging when you feel dumb every day, you feel that you have no idea how to do anything right, and that people could care less if you were there. It's an awkward place to be. Peds has been better about making you feel a litte more at home, but you still fell like a wallflower. Yet today I felt a little ray of hope. Is it still scary? Yes. Am I still feeling stupid? Absolutely. Will I ever know it all? Hell no. But there are some quiet moments where I feel that things may be ok...
Either that or I make it that way for the sake of my sanity.