(no subject)

[littledots]

there isnt really any reason to care about this shit anymore.

so instead i go out on the boat every day with ted and ignore the universe.
if you forgot, this is what we did all winter, only in my house playing guitar hero.

when i say ignore the universe what i really mean is that we pay attention to the universe.. we just ignore the shit. and for some reasons our brains allow it. we don't have to think about everything all of the time. we can just sit. we dont even have to talk. we talk a lot. we sit. we float. there isnt really a lot going on. and it feels fabulous.
i missed this feeling. i missed ted a lot.

we made our skydiving date.
holy fuck
i am going to jump out on an airplane. what?

when i think about it i almost pee my pants.
i can't wait.

I guess I'm going to long island and baltimore with emily and how we are
thats going to be fun
chuck is going too
this way.. if we argue.. i can just jump out of the car and splatter onto the highway

no, really.

I'm going to see nabeen for the first time in over a year. holy shit!

I have a lot to be happy about. but it changes every few seconds.
im nervous
ugh